Only His

Epilogue

Kazimir

The explosion replayed in my head and I couldn't get it out of my head. She was dead, she was fucking gone, just like that. I told her to wait on me. Maybe I would have died with her there, but she wouldn't have been alone.

My heart squeezed in my chest and I was going to kill Mikhail and Henrik. They were both missing since this occurred. I was fucking livid that they let her go their on there own. They got to walk alive, while she was dead. They lived, while didn't get to at all.

She was dead. My heart ached in my chest as I the words of her being dead weighed heavy on me. She was dead. My chest was tight in body.

A knock came from the door and I looked towards the door. I never wanted to answer the door. I didn't want to speak to anyone. Even if it was Mikhail and Henrik.

My grieving and loss outweighed my bloodlust at the moment. I wanted her back, I wanted my lioness back. I wanted to hold her one more time in my arms. I wished I never rejected her kiss or not looking at her. I wished I could just take back our last moments together. To fix it, to make it feel right between us.

My heart ached again in my chest. My eyes becoming watery. I haven't cried this much in so long. Not since Italy. The person at the door knocked again.

"Go the fuck away!" I yell.

"Kazimir, I have something that will help," Oleg spoke, through the door.

I groaned and I wiped my eyes. I can't be seen crying in front of anyone. I took a second to gather myself. I got up from the chair and I dragged myself to the door. I slightly opened it and Oleg stood close to the door.

"What?"

"Here, this should ease of some of the pain."

He held the little clear bag with a small amount of cocaine. I looked up at him. I don't even say anything and I just take it from him.

"Where's Mikhail and Henrik?" I ask.

"They are in the other room, should I have the men prepare the room for clean up?"

"Yes, I will be there in thirty minutes."

I shut the door after that and I moved back over to the table. I put the baggie onto the table and I picked my blazer up off the back of the chair. I took out my wallet to get a card. It's been months, the last time I did this was testing the product.

I assorted myself and I made sure the lines were crisp and neat. I leaned forward as I took a line and my nostril felt odd with the drug taking over.

***

I stood in front of the both of them. They rested on their knees, their hands behind their backs. There faces held a neutral expression, their face hard with no emotion. I looked at the both of the disgust.

"One fucking job I gave you. Protect my lioness and what the fuck do you do? TAKE TO THE FUCKING ENEMY!" I yell.

I got close into Mikhail's face as he was the main person I had an issue with. He has been with her since we started seeing each other. I had my gun in my hand I was ready to blow his brains out. I pushed the gun into his head and yet he didn't flinch.

He looked straight ahead. His jaw was tight, but he never looked at me. I tapped the gun at the side of his face.

"You, especially. You knew what you were doing. You were her number one and you failed at your job," I sneered.