MY FIRST LOVE

A Ray of Hope

In the month of may, we shifted to our new flat.

It's been months now since we are living here.

And it's been months now since I saw him last time.

yes, till the last moment I didn't get a chance to meet him and tell him everything.

I didn't even bid him goodbye, or took his contact to stay in touch with him.

I don't even know when we will meet next time.

I can't even say if we will meet or not?

Agghhhh!

Now I'm on the verge of crying.

How badly I want to meet him...

here, I'm missing him so much.

When I was there, he used to come only during holidays, so we used to meet each other after so many days.

And now, he is far away and I don't even know when we will meet.

I can't describe how much I miss him.

Like when I have any work I miss him, when I dont have any work I miss him, when I'm alone I miss him, when i'm enjoying with my friends there also I miss him.

It feels like no difference is left between missing him and breathing.

Even I'm doubting myself that I consider him as a friend or more than that.

But what should I do now?

There is nothing in my hands.

I can't even contact him or do anything about it.

I even visit my maasi's house often but still nothing is happening.

Like, my maasi still lives in the apartment where we used to live.

and now my mom's and maasi's fight is also sorted out.

Now we visit their house, often, and that too as if nothing happened before.

But the main point is I will visit there in hope that someday coincidently chinmay will be there, and I will get a chance to meet him.

Every time I visit there I cross my fingers manifesting that I will get to see him at least but every time I only get disappointed.

Today,
It's 10 december 2018,
around 8 pm.

Me and my mom are going to maasi's house again.

We are on our scooty now, my mom is driving and i'm sitting behind her.

Today I'm wishing that I could see him.

We are near maasi's house, we have to take right once and then go straight and we will reach there.

so now mom took a right turn, and then i was looking in the front. someone was coming from there.

The light of the street light  is reflecting in my eyes, so first I didn't see 'who it is?'

But then when we got a little bit closer I saw that he was...

He was Chinmay.

He was also looking at me.

Our scooty passed by him, till I crossed him, we shared an eye contact.

Though it was of some seconds, but some seconds never felt so long before.

Then we visited massi's house. There was also all the time I was thinking about him.

Then we came out of the house as now we were leaving.

there also he was standing out of their house.

He was pretending as if doing some work there.

but when we were again passing by him, again I shared eye contact with him.

So many emotions were there in that eye contact.

So many unspoken words were behind that eye contact.

When we returned home.

I was on cloud nine.

I was so happy.

I was literally dancing and singing and what not.

That day I realised that I love him.

yes, I love him.

He is mine.

I know.

The eye contact we shared, told me so much about his emotions.

Even after all this he is still mine.

like me, he also wants to meet me and talk to me.

The eye contact, this day gave me a Ray of Hope.

Yes, we will meet.

After what happened today I believe that we will surely meet one day.and next time when I will meet him, I will never let him go away from me.

We will stay together.

Forever.

Next day also I was telling all this to my friends, and i still remember, how happy I was, and like a crazy person I was continously smiling while telling all this to them. hehe!