A collection of short stories

Conflicted

The next morning, Sadie awoke to the sun shining on her face; she yawned and felt her burn on her cheek. It still hurt, she looked at her bare arms, and despite all the little freckles all over them she could make out small burns. Sadie shrugged it off though and began brushing her orange hair, once again brushing her fingers through it finding knots to undo. She pulled on a purple shirt and jeans today, still wearing her converse shoes though, she and everyone were called for breakfast. She joined them in the cafeteria, she grabbed a plate of toast and sat at the table. Christian approached her.

"Morning," he said.

"Hey," she said.

"Okay, look I just want to clarify something, whatever happened last night cannot happen again," Sadie exclaimed.

"What, we can't have deep pep talks?" Christian asked.

Sadie rolled her eyes. "No, you goof that kiss," Sadie replied.

"Oh, yeah I'm sorry about that. I don't know what came over me, I'm uh sorry."

"It's fine, I wouldn't normally mind being kissed but it's just I'm not ready yet and we've only known each other for three days," Sadie explained.

"Yeah I know, but you were hurting and it just seemed like an appropriate time, I thought it might make you feel better," Christian said.

Sadie furrowed her eyebrows. "So, you're using me now? I was hurting last night after what Stella did to me and you admit to me now that kissing me felt appropriate because I was upset. I bet if I was as happy, you wouldn't want to kiss me, but if I was balling my eyes out you'd want to kiss me. God, how could I have been so stupid to think I could ever be friends with a boy? They're all the same," Sadie shouted, tears beginning to form in her eyes.

"Sadie, that's not what...I'm really sorry for moving too quickly I just-"Christian started to say.

"Just what, Christian?" Sadie interrupted him.

"I just want you to know that I have feelings for you, strong feelings, and I also just want you to know that I would never take advantage of you when you're not in your right mind. Last night, I wasn't thinking, I was following my head not my heart, my head was telling me to make the stupid decision of kissing the girl I have feelings for but my heart was saying for me to just let it happen on its own and take your time but me, being the moron I am didn't listen," Christian explained.

This was quite an explanation, Sadie didn't trust people very much but once had found the right person she opened up to them. She thought Christian could be this guy, she could trust the most in her life but maybe he wasn't, she didn't know anymore. Boys are all the same, they think they care about us girls, but they don't. The ones that are perfect only exist in fictional worlds made up by authors and directors, whereas ones in the real world don't exist. Sadie, would rather date Steve Harrington from 'Stranger Things' or Draco Malfoy from those boring ass 'Harry Potter movies' that she didn't necessarily like but always had a crush on Malfoy. Now those guys would treat her right, her two fictional crushes, that she knew she could never have because they didn't exist in real life. Sadie sighed, when she ever found the perfect guy like Steve Harrington or Malfoy she would let her messed up little brain know and tell it to shove itself for ever making her think she could ever crush on a fictional person.

"I understand where you're coming from Christian but I just need some time, okay? I can't process everything at once, when your lips touched mine all the blood rushed to my brain and I got those weird butterflies in my stomach. I'm conflicted Christian, I want to be kissed by you but not right away. I just want to be alone, I'll talk to you later today, alright?" Sadie explained.