What did I just do? I just killed someone. I looked down at my hands, there's blood on my suit I've made such a mess. My hands are the same. I break down on the cold alleyway floor after the full extent of what I just did hits me.
Killing Dennis isn't gonna bring Billy back. I thought it would feel better. I thought killing him would bring my family back together. I sit there with my knees to my chest. Sobbing, terrible sobbing. I don't ever want to move from this spot ever just sit here until I die, after I'm dead. The sky ever so slightly turning brighter as the sun comes up and the moon goes down.
I know i have to get up or someone will worry I'm not sure who. I stumble my way home still not completely in my well being. The blood on my hands and suit had dried which probably doesn't look that better. I open the front door the hinges squeaking open. I still have my full suit on. There's blood everywhere. I see Dennis everywhere now in his same petrified state I left him in.
I stagger to my room falling on to the floor. I glance to my clock near the lamp. 4:32 great one more day to add to no sleep. I've lost track of the days I've been up, I honestly don't know how I'm still functioning. I walk to the shower not wanting to go to school with dried blood on my hands. The waters hot but soothing after a while. I also haven't had a shower in a while. I do the normal but bare minimum in the shower.
Then try to find at least one pair of clean clothes, I don't. So I just throw on dirty clothes. Then walked to my bus stop with beamer boy- lil peep blasting in my ears. It's not even light out when I go to the bus stop.
