My Indecisive Heart

Chapter 2 - Stay Away From Me

"Um, hey Isaac, been a while."

My heart was beating out of my chest and anyone who took one glance at me could have noticed that I was extremely anxious. Why was I anxious? You are over him, aren't you?

I wasn't. I still liked him a lot and a little part of me wanted him back. I hated myself for that. I made myself seem available to him, like he could come and apologize to me anytime and I'll take him back. That was the case, and I detested myself for feeling that way.

"What's up?" His eyes seemed concerned like he wanted to talk to me as well. At this point, I was an anxious mess. I was struggling to breathe properly and I was on the verge of peeling off the skin on my fingers because I had been tugging at them aggressively for a while now. Still, I couldn't let him notice any of this. Regaining myself, I spoke back expecting the worst.

"Why did you break up with me?" I replied hurriedly, a part of me wishing that he did not hear me. When he didn't give me an answer, I spoke again even more anxious now. "Do you not like me anymore? Or is it someone else?" I don't know why I acted possessive, I mean we weren't together anymore. I guess it was hard for me to accept the fact that we were actually over.

"It's not that. It's not you Kay. I simply don't like anyone anymore. I'm not ready to date you yet. I have so many issues that I do not want you to be involved in." He answered coldly. 

I was shocked at his answer. Given his personality, I only expected him to mutter a 'weirdo', push past me and walk away. Isaac was not particularly the nice type. That was how I perceived him. To me, he was the cold, bad-boy type. Even when we dated, sometimes he'd be nice and sweet, and other times, he would ice me out. I did get used to it after a while but it still hurt every time he did it.

"Oh." was all I could say. I couldn't help but replay everything he just said in my mind. Shocking was an understatement, I was dumbfounded.

"What issues?"

"I don't want you to know. It's better if you just stayed away from me, Kayla."

"Isaac, y- you know I can't stay away from you"

"Well, I'm sorry but you have to. If you excuse me, I have somewhere I need to be."

Then, he pushed past me this time and walked away, leaving me there on the verge of bursting into tears. I walked into the nearest bathroom ignoring everyone who was staring and whispering. I didn't care at this point. All I could think about was how Isaac told me to stay away from him. A few weeks ago, we were inseparable and now, I'm his estranged ex.

I shut myself in the bathroom stall and let it all out. I cried to the extent that my throat hurt. But I didn't care. The pain in my throat was nothing compared to the pain I felt in my heart after hearing everything Isaac had to say. Suddenly, I heard footsteps. I looked under the door of the bathroom stall and I recognized Isaac's shoes.

Wait, why was Isaac in the girls' bathroom? I tried to scan my surroundings further before I realized something. I had locked myself in the boys' bathroom.

Well, fuck me.

I was too busy crying to notice that I ran inside the male toilet. Perhaps that was why everyone was staring at me. How could I let a boy take over my reasoning in that manner?

"Are you there, man? Open up, I gotta pee."

It was a male voice. Not just any voice, it was Isaac's voice. I stood there frozen.

"C'mon man, I really gotta go." Isaac whined, obviously annoyed by the tone of his voice.

Well, I could not do anything. I mean, what could I possibly do? Come out of the stall with my tear-stained face and be like 'Oh, hi Isaac. I was just busy crying in the male toilet because you told me to avoid you.' I honestly couldn't say that. I had to think of how to get out of here and I had to do it now. I looked up and noticed the window slightly open. Though I was tall, I had a slim figure and I could slip in anywhere perfectly. I decided to get out through the window.

Okay here goes.