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Once in a lifetime, a human is expected to experience the infamous five stages of grief. It is eerily similar to Dante's Inferno because every soul has to inevitably go through different stages of the earth — life and death. In Dante's Inferno, a soul would go through different stages of death before learning if they were allowed into Heaven or sent back to Hell after learning about a soul's sins. The nine circles of Hell went as followed; limbo, lust, gluttony, greed, anger, heresy, violence, fraud, and treachery. It was almost as the same of the five stages of grief too; denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
So, what did they have in common?
They both fucking sucked and they were the worst, but the five stages of grief was probably the absolute hardest for someone to deal with.
Losing somebody who was particularly close to you, whether it was a friend or a family member, hurt enough and that overwhelming sense of dread was ripped straight out of a person's chest. There is absolutely no words to describe how much grief can change a person or on how it felt to someone. Sure, people would find it completely difficult to actually acknowledge the fact that they were grieving. So, here's how Odessa Sinclair saw grief: it was fucking ugly and she wanted to bury it into the earth where it could never pop up. She wanted to kill the feeling and make sure it would never, ever see the light of day.
On the day of her father's funeral, Odessa Sinclair went back to Carmy's apartment and sleep walked throughout the night which was strange because she hadn't done that since she was a kid and the stress of her father's death made her want to be swallowed by the earth.
Little to no people came to her father's funeral and they just buried him in the ground like it was nothing. No flowers, no goodbyes, nothing, and she had to pack up his belongings from his house because nobody else wanted anything to do with him except for her uncle.
But why?
Her father was probably the best man she knew and it was baffling on how nobody else saw that either.
Odessa sobbed so much that her voice was hoarse and her hair was unkempt because she wouldn't get up from Carmy's bed. She never felt this way when her mother died, probably because she was too busy to go to the funeral, and it hurt so bad. Odessa didn't know what to do or how to deal with the pain even though it was now three months after her father's death and nothing got better.
The only time she got up was to head into work or shower, but that would be it.
The grief would never leave and it was always coming back in different waves. Denial, then the anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Odessa believed she truly was trapped in Dante's Inferno, a tortured soul trapped and thrown within a limbo.
