secret love

Closets

Enid.

I was hanging out with Yoko and Liv, they got some notification about Tyler's party and had the grand idea of going. Of course I didn't want to go, one because of Wednesday. And two because parties weren't really my thing.

They had this whole idea that If I went I could either win her back or make her jealous. The second one seemed more appealing to me. I had no need to want her back. So of course we went.

We walked into The party quite late. We decided to have a few shots before we arrived just to ease the nerves. Yoko seemed really nervous, nobody knew why though. Me and Liv have started to believe she has a crush on someone. Someone she's not supposed to.. like I did with Wednesday.

I took her out of my mind. I started to distract myself with different things like my future, school and my friends. I started to read and that helped me a lot, until they brought up a dark haired girl or a pool or secret kissed then I remembered.

I met this dark haired boy, who had freckles and brown eyes. I forgot what he said his name was but I didn't really care. We were backed away in a corner. And I lowkey liked it. Well I didn't have much of my opinion as I was pretty drunk. But it still felt good. He whispered and asked if I wanted to 'head somewhere else' I nodded.

That was until someone pushed him off of me. He scoffed at them in response. He revealed his hand wrapped in a cast as he goes to shove the person back, which I grab onto making him wince in pain. I kept my eyes on him until I heard her voice.

"Do you want a matching one"

He nods his head and she lets go, making him practically run away from the both of us. I started to walk away as I rolled my eyes.  Who does she think she is. I'm trying to move on. Maybe she should go back to her boyfriend.

I suddenly felt a hand on my wrist.

"Sinclair. Wait"

"What could you possibly want, Addams."

"I want to talk about that night"

"There's nothing to talk about. I was doing perfectly fine with that boy until you turned up."

"Please he only wanted to get in bed with you"

I felt myself cross my arms and smirk.

"I wasn't going to stop him"

The reaction made my day even better. A sudden drop of her mouth. Her body became tense. She finally let go of my wrist.

"Just leave me alone. I don't want to talk right now" I said and l walked out of the door. The rain hitting my hair immediately. But I didn't mind. After countless weeks of walking in the rain, it didn't bother me anymore. Nothing really did. Only Wednesday. It bothered me how she didn't seem to care about my absence. She never asked about the night after Bianca's party.

I called Yoko immediately asking her to come meet me. I bumped into Liv who was sat outside in the rain on the porch step. Smoking a cigarette.

I sit down beside her and get as close as I possibly could, feeling my shivers take over. "Want some?" She said as she gestured over her cigarette. I shook my head, "I shouldn't". "But you will" she smirked and handed it to me, reading my mind. It hadn't been my first time. I tried it once before, an old friend group pressured me into it. I didn't really get addicted though. The toast was sickening and vile. But right now it didn't bother me.

She suddenly jolted her head to me, "what's up with you? Why aren't you in there with the cute guy" I handed back her cigarette. "Wednesday pushed him away from me, and insisted on us having a "conversation" I didn't though I left" I said using air quotes.

Liv seemed to arch her eyebrow at me. I suddenly saw a smirk creep up on her face, "is Wednesday Addams... jealous"

We both break out into laughter. It was a totally absurd question. But it did get me thinking. Why would she push him away if she doesn't want anything to do with me. Liv noticed my change in facial expression, and she stood up, brushing off any dirt on the back of her jeans. "Come let's go have our own fun"

She took my hands and pulled me up, dragging me back into the house. I was immediately met with a bunch of shots and drinks. I looked over at Liv who chugged them down without a doubt, I of course did the same.

——

I woke up to a call. It was 4pm. My head was pounding and spinning. And my vision felt blurry. I let the phone ring for a moment whilst my vision repaired. The phone displayed "Yoko"

I answered as soon as I could.

Yoko: heyyy sleeping beauty

Enid: hi

Yoko: so I heard you had quite the fun last night

Enid: what.

I sat up immediately. Constantly regretting it because of the rush it gave my head making me fall backwards.

Yoko: you really don't remember damnnnnn i was so shocked when i found out

Enid: what are you talking about Yoko.

Yoko: well there's two things....

I waited.

Yoko: first you should check your photos. And second I'm too scared to tell you.

I immediately opened my camera roll. Ignoring the last part for now. I put the phone on speaker.

"What. Where did that come from" I shouted.

Immediately jumping up, again. This time I didn't go back down.

Yoko: this was in a closet... FIVE minutes before I walked in and saw you guys...

She paused.

Yoko: making out.

Enid: WE WHAT

Yoko: your hands were like lifting each others shirts off and you was... I don't even wanna say it... pinned to the wall.

She whispered the last part, disgustedly.

I screamed and threw my phone.

What the fuck.