21 days

Day 2

I woke up very early, because I had the same nightmare again. I dreamed that my Mom hates me. I felt sick, ran to the bathroom and threw up. There was a strange feeling inside of me. I went to the bathroom mirror and looked into my face. I looked really bad. I tried to cover it with some make up and slowly went downstairs. Rachel was waiting for me in the kitchen.

"Good morning Christina." she smiled. I gave her a weakly smile.

"Are you okay, Chris? You look really bad." she came to me.

"Yes.. I'm okay.. I just threw up and I didn't sleep well..." I said and sat on a chair.

"Oh no Chris.. I'm sorry.. Do you want a tea?" Rachel asked worried.

"Yes thank you." I smiled. I spotted my phone on the table and grabbed it. Seemed like I forgot my purse here. I checked my message. There was an anonymous one.

"Do you miss me, Tina?! Just tell me!" I read and there was no name. But even if there was no name, I knew who sent me this. Dani. She was the only one who called me Tina.
I didn't know what to answer, because I missed her a lot. I decided to make this to my day 2 challenge. I was going to send an anonymous message to every sister, but I didn't know what to say. But okay, this was a challenge and I'll pass.

"Here's your tea, Chris." Rachel brought me the tea.

"Thanks." I said and I got an idea. I wasn't online on twitter since I left my family, because I didn't want the hate of everyone... Everyone would've known it after a short time... Rachel left for a call or something, so I logged into my twitter acc. I was afraid, because everyone would hate me. My messages were full of texts. I was going to write a little quote. A known quote from myself.

"You can CHOOSE to believe in hope..." I typed and pressed the 'tweet' button. I waited for some reactions. I got some hate messages and some messages were about my happily coming back. Well, but that's not the reason I tweeted this. I decided to leave as soon as it was possible. Rachel came back with a banana and a muesli.

"Christina, you were always a really healthy person, I think it's not good if you don't eat." she said and sat next to me.

"Hope..." I mumbled and ate my banana. When I finished, I told her what I was gonna doing.
She didn't want me to leave and I could understand her. I gave her my little lion keychain. He was always with me. What could be a better thing for todays challenge? And who could be better than Rachel to keep it?

"Rachel, please, I want my family back..." I begged. Now, she understood. I grabbed my bag and my purse. I hugged Rachel once again and felt that she was afraid. I think she was afraid of me leaving her again. I walked towards the hill. Yes, she lived on a hill. I took the bus to the city. The bus arrived at 2pm. I decided to go to the Cybercafé. I ordered a coffee and sat there and stared out of the window.

"Miss? Are you okay?" a lady tapped me. I turned around and was confused.

"What? Ehhh yeah." I said quickly.

"Oh okay, I thought something is wrong because you stared out of the window while your phone already ringed for 3 times." the lady told me.

"What?? Omg, that's embarrassing. Thanks for telling me." I said embarrassed. The lady smiled and went away. I took my phone. Ellen called me. I decided to ignore this calls and took my journal and my pen and begun to write:

"Day 2. I don't feel well and this makes me sick. All the happiness I got from Nick is gone. Yesterday, brought me kindness. Rachel forgave me and helped me alot. I miss my family and especially my Mom. My parents taught me so much and that's what I gave them back? I left them? I-" I pushed my coffee. Over my journal. I took a cloth from my purse and wiped it away. Ugh my paper was full with coffee and it smelled. I dried it and sat down. So, I decided to text my sisters. I made my number anonym. Katherine was the first one.