Emotions

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"It feels good doesn't it?"

First laid in his usual spot on the bed, all pain and fear flooding away. "Do you like it?" He heard the one who laid next to him ask.

Strangely enough, yes he did, First didn't know that cigarettes could be this so addicting.

"See, you just need to get used it all." Khaotung the one was laying next to him chuckled, and for some reason First also smile followed by a small giggle. First was high like a kites flying on the sky.

First don't know what kind of cigarettes Khaotung gives to him but it doesn't matter.

"Do you want some more?" Khaotung sat up and so First followed, a proud nod with his child like expression.

Khaotung patted his head then quickly reached under the bed and pulled out a bag, from there he took out a glass bong, this caused First cheeks to flush a light red. He couldn't believe he was actually doing this, atleast it was better than being forced some strange pills, though he never figure out what they were laced with, everytime he asked, khaotung shouted at him or sometimes beat him so he never asked again even though he wanted.

"Come here" Khaotung said as he brought the burning cigarettes to his own lips then he took it down not letting the smoke goes out then after that he grabbed First neck and kissed him roughly.

And strangely enough it help a lot, it helps a lot for him to forget.

He felt relaxed, he didn't feel any pain, he wasn't scared anymore. His mind it was peaceful, even with his current situation.

"You look beautiful."

First heard the soothing voice speak after Khaotung broke the kiss making First to blush more to that.

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"Do you remember when we watch the kites together?"

After First spoke up, a deep breath followed. The two were on the carpeted floor. Laying on their backs, opposite with each other. Legs crossed while staring at the ceiling.

"That was random." Khaotung was opposite him started but then cut himself off with a better answer. "Yeah, i do remember. Why bring it up now."

"I was thinking about it." Their was a lingering sadness as he reminisced over that particular moment. "It feels like time really slipped by, right out of my fingertips."

As he spoke his lines, he trailed his hands up, brushing one set of fingertips over the other, slightly swaying them while his body sunk into the carpet that was starting to look and feel like seas of flowers.

For the moment there, he left his body.

He was no longer trapped in this motel, but rather he was in the field of dandelions and butterfly's

He was no longer scared and hurt, But rather brave and free, full of life and spinning under the sun rays.

He was no longer held back by Khaotung but rather inlove with him. If only that was easy.

"Do you want to go back?"

Their was another moment while Khaotung's words registered in First ears. Go back? What exactly did he mean by that?

"We could go get your pajamas and then go out to the field near the train station. If that's something you'd like..?"

First caught onto the slight stutter in other shakens voice. It's like his confidence was gone, like the switch happened.

"I'd love too.."