Nothing to You (a switz fanfic)

~10~

Cameron woke with a start, sitting straight up in bed. He clutched his racing heart and sighed. Eric was quick to raise up next to him, hugging him from behind. Even sitting down, the height difference was evident. "You still get night terrors?" The shorter said, his lips pressed into the other's bare back. Cam nodded, swallowing and still catching his breath. "Yeah..." He sighed, grabbing the shorter's thigh through the blanket. "That one was bad... I'm so happy you're here Eric." He rubbed his leg with his thumb before twisting himself around to hug him back, holding tightly. He brushed through his messied curls down to the back of his neck and down. He smiled as he felt Eric's shirt, remembering it was his own that the shorter had borrowed to sleep in. He kissed the top of his forehead before lying back down, stretching out an arm and inviting Eric onto his chest. The curly headed cutie quickly accepted, snuggling into him and twirling his chest hair around his finger. "We should've known something was up when we slept together at the house almost every night..." He laughed softly, his voice gravelly from sleep. Eric giggled, squeezing Cam's frame tightly, "Honestly I kinda did.. I said it was to help with your nightmares but really that was the best sleep I ever had.. knowing you were there." Cam smiled, humming quietly before tousling the other's hair. "I just wish we could've got out of our own heads sooner, I hated hating you all the time." Eric laughed again but the taller suddenly rolled over top of him pinning down his arms. "And don't think I've forgotten how fucking mean you were to me for months on end." Eric only rolled his eyes, "you already gave me a bloody lip.." Cam smiled slyly, feeling Eric growing under him threw him off and he got back off of him quickly. "Well I'll uh.. do worse than that.. later.." He shook his head as he threw back the covers and brought his legs out over the bed. Eric was quick to come to his side, on his knees he wrapped his arms around Eric's chest resting his head on the other's shoulder. "Im sorry.. Don't worry about this stuff, ok? I just want to spend time with you." He kissed his cheek and laid his head back down. Cam sighed once again, "Well I want to do more than that.. frankly. But I- I don't know." Eric rubbed his chest soothingly. "It's weird for me too.. I've never been with another guy yknow.. But I want it to feel right for both of us, so until then-" He kissed the back of his neck. "We'll do what you're comfortable with." Cam smiled, hoping this feeling would actually pass.

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It was 4 pm before the two left the bed, they'd spent the day entangled in each other's arms. Both agreed that they wouldn't disclose the new situation to the others, the exception being of course, Tobi. Cam turned off the shower and stepped out, wrapping his towel around his waist and leaving the bathroom. Eric, already washed, was sitting on the couch. One leg folded under the other while scrolling his phone. "All done." Cam said as he picked up his drink from the coffee table. The shorter looked up from his phone, his cheeks flushing before quickly looking back. "Good.. you wanna go to the house soon?" Cam smiled a little at his embarrassment, it was nice to turn the tables for a little while. He'd spend so long questioning every move he made around the shorter, every word he said. And especially, never admitting to himself how good the other looked. "We can, but I don't think we should show up together, y'know?" He said over his shoulder as he walked back down the hall to his bedroom, dropping the towel. "We could just say I picked you up" Eric half screamed from the living room. Cam dried himself off and put on some boxers followed by his black skinny jeans with a cold ones hoodie, white tee underneath. He picked the towel from the floor and hung it on the holder in the bathroom, next to Eric's. This made him smile as he re-entered the living room sitting next to the shorter. "What do you think?.. What are you smiling about?" The shorter asked, smiling widely himself. Cameron shook his head, shrugging. "Just happy.." Eric squeezed him tightly, "Me too...
"Now what are we gonna tell everybody?" His smile faded as he sighed, "uhhh... just you go first I guess tell them something then I'll uber over.." Eric rolled his eyes "it's so dumb we have to do this.." The taller played with his hair and rested his head on the other's. "We agreed we don't want anyone to know yet." Eric nodded, "you're right.. I just don't want to be without you on the car ride over.." Cam laughed and pulled his face close to kiss him. "Well you better get used to it, you can even kiss me when we're over there.." He smiled against his lips, kissing him again. "yea well.." *kiss* "you can't kiss me either." Cam sighed tugging at the shorters shirt. "You're right.. We're so cooked." Eric laughed, "complete and utterly.."

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Cam left the uber and walked up the driveway, smiling to himself as he realized the dread of seeing Eric had turned to excitement. He opened the door and toed off his shoes. Noone was sat at the couch which he found odd, but continued into the kitchen finding Tobi, Eric and Mason at the counter stools. "Nahh I'm telling ya's it was only 2 minutes and I busted.. She wa-" Cam smiled and interjected, "She was fucking hot?" Mason whipped around to see the taller and laughed. "She was fucking hot as, mate." He added with a goofy laugh. He got up to hug Cameron tightly patting him on the back. "Where you been cunt?" Cameron laughed awkwardly and walked over to hug Tobi. "Just been a bit busy mate, yknow.." Mason nodded and sat back down, Cam doing the same at the last stool next to Eric. He gave him a quick smile and nudged him arm. "So what're we upto tonight?" He asked the group as he grabbed an unopened Arizona iced tea off the counter. "Well we were thinking about going out before we go on the big trip." Tobi finished before looking to Eric than Cam and winking with a smile.
"What trip?" he questioned looking between the two of them. "Oh, we're going to the U.S. to do some filming in two days." Tobi said nonchalantly, Cam scoffed. "We? When was I going to be told about this?" Something inside of him had clicked back into place. He felt, for the first time in months, sure of himself. Not passive, or nervous, or indifferent, but secure in what he wanted to say and present himself. 'feels fuckin' great' "Well we're telling you now, obviously." Tobi laughed. "Hm" He nodded and smiled, catching Eric's eye and smiling a bit wider for it. "Whatever, sounds good." He stepped down from his stool and opened the cabinet behind the counter pulling out a bottle of white rum. "Pregame?" He asked the three still sat, Mason nodding and coming over to him happily. Eric shook his head at him subtly giving him a stern look. To which Cam raised his eyebrows and popped off the lid. "Just a bit lads." He turned away and poured himself and Mas a shot. "You sure you don't want one?" He asked over his shoulder. Tobi laughed and stood up, "eh what the fuck." Eric scoffed, "nah I'm good, gonna go to my room. Tell me when ya'll are ready to leave." Cameron watched as he went down the hall. 'bit dramatic..' He cheered the other's and knocked his shot back. No chase because as he would've said, 'I'm an adult.'
"I gotta piss, I'll be right back." He explained before going to Eric's room.
He turned the knob to find it lock and rolled his eyes before knocking quietly with one knuckle. Eric made him wait 17 seconds before he opened it with a, "what?" Cam furrowed his brows, pushing his way past into Eric's room. "What?' What do you mean, 'what?' You're really gonna get like that over me taking a shot?" He searched Eric. "You know what drinking does to you, you know you've struggled with it Cam." Cameron scoffed, shaking his head. "Yea I have struggled with it, I've struggled with alot of things. I'm not right now, what's your point?" Eric stares back at him, his mouth parted slightly. "The point is that We're going out tonight and I don't want one thing to lead to another." Cameron shook his head disbelievingly, "You really think I'm gonna have a couple shots and then decide to get an 8ball?" Eric pursed his lips, sighing through his nose. "I don't know Cam, and I mean fuck look what happened the last time you did coke.." Cam's mouth hung open briefly before retorting, "You're not seriously bringing up Melody right now?" Eric shrugged, his face still twisted into the angry position Cam knew all too well. "Im just saying, you've been drinking for two weeks straight and you don't think clearly when you're like that." Cam nodded, his blood boiling he paced on the spot a little. "You didn't seem to care when it was me drinking alone at home after the camping trip." Eric's glare softened a bit but Cam had no intention of backing off. "Are you seriously that jealous? Did you even mean any of the shit you said last night or did seeing me with someone else just not sit right with you?" Eric took a step back, seemingly staggered. "It's not anything like that.. I ju-" Cameron shook his head, "this is just another way of you fucking with me I know it.." He stormed past Eric and grabbed the door knob before he felt the shorter's grip on his sleeve. "Don't do this.." Eric pleaded up to him, "Let go of me. Im done trying to decipher what you actually want." He left the room, slamming the door.