It's my Birthday! (Last Chapter until the fanfic)

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Omg I never would've thought I could make it to my birthday like this. This will be my LAST update to this before I publish another chapter.


So, quick update, my friend was going through another suicidal thing yet again, and this time I knew it wasn't going to be a cop-out.

With that... I decided to seek the divine creator from above. I was scared, no doubt. I went on my hands and knees, all the way to the floor until I couldn't anymore, and I wept, seeking and praying God to put His heavenly handout and stop my friend (I'll call them Nex for the sake of it).

I had suddenly stopped crying, like I no longer felt the need to cry, and I slowly stood back up after my prayer. I then heard, "He'll be okay", and I felt this reassurance that he was going to stay alive.

I felt this need to reach out to my closest friend, and he quickly prayed for him as well, and I then texted Nex, to which a conversation came forth. The one thing I KNEW he could hear was God's voice, so I asked him. I asked if he could hear Him. 

He said yes. He told me that God told him not to die. I knew it already, but I needed him to tell me so he knew it was God, and not just some sort of "guilty conscience". 

(To understand this better, Nex is someone who's confused on religion, and he wants to know who to trust. When I "introduced" him to God's word and Himself, he figured I was a Catholic or Christian, to which, yes I'm a Christian. But, he was thinking I was going to try and pressure him into my "religion", to which I simply told him I'd never do that.

And it's true, I'd never force ANYONE to. I'd never force you lovelies, my nephew, my friends, no one. BUT, I will stay firm on my faith and if you are going through something, my first instinct will to be letting you know God loves you and knows you. Cheesy statement yes, but I get my point clear by parables, not by just saying that.)

I told him that if he didn't matter, then why would God reach out? Why would He say "don't do this" when you're an incompetent being?

The answer is simple, everyone has a purpose, and meaning to this life. It doesn't really matter whether you've gone through abuse or snorted "ice" for a living. You still have a purpose no doubt. You're still loved, even if you feel like you're not, and you're never alone, even if you feel abandoned.

So he then let off of the knife, and let it go. He told me he had this feeling of guilt, and that he doesn't feel like he's worthy of being forgiven. I'll break this heavy icy for everyone reading this, because this needs to come out.

You can never EARN forgiveness. It's not earned by the amount of good deeds you do, as Romans 3:23 says, "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God." When doing your best to obey God's word, humanity kicks in and trips you, so you sin yet again. By your first sin, you're a sinner.

Forgiveness is given to you, by grace. The only thing you need to do in return is to confess God is the one and only, and Jesus is the I Am—God's anointed one.

That's all it takes. A prayer, and an opening of your spirit. Sin is sin, no matter how big or small it is to our eyes, but the penalties differ between the sins, like how a judge states that a felony is a felony, but the sentencing for the penalty differs.

After discussing that with Nex, he started to understand better what it takes. 

He told me he felt like he wasn't worthy, but he knew he was worthy. To which, I knew it was a demonic presence tryna play ping pong with God, which of course He took no bullcrap and grabbed the demon by its neck, because I called it out.

He told me he felt the need to control his sinful habits before having God in his life, and I quickly stopped him there, to which I'll copy and paste what I said to him into here:

"You cannot solve your sinful habits without God.

It is like telling me that you have to drink a cup of water with your hand, but there is a straw leading to the water itself.

You need God in order for you to solve your sinful habits."

So, he promised to ask for forgiveness when he feels ready to. I agreed and we moved on. But something was still nagging me. What was it? The testimony of Job.

After telling him the story, he had calmed down, and understood that all it took was loyalty and thankfulness to have such blessings. Job lost everything from Satan taking it, but by the permission of God, since Satan wanted to test the loyalty Job had to God. So, Satan took his kids, animals, other possessions, and even his own health. God had one rule, do not kill Job.

Satan didn't and he was baffled to see Job still praising God, even when his wife was cursing Him. Satan couldn't stay anymore, and he left. God then blessed Job with double the amount of possessions he lost, and had 3 daughters, 7 sons.

After telling him the testimony, he had calm down completely, and even told me he shed a tear as I was telling him it. 

So, he's definitely lost and seeking reassurance by something or someone divine, he just doesn't know where to turn, and I'm proud to say he's my responsibility, and has been since March of this year. Again, I do not force him to listen, and I don't force him into my religion. I have been patient and constantly ask if he wishes to hear the testimonies I've seen from the Bible, to which he either says "yes" or "no". Nothing in between. He knows that he can simply say no if he wants to.

So, that's where I'm at with my friend, and he's been okay ever since.

Anywho, Happy Birthday to me! :D

I'm not saying what level I've unlocked...

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That's for when I feel comfortable telling y'all, buuut until then, I can be now a person of celebration for today.


My dad's making my cake, and I'll uh- After making a chapter I'll post a picture on both here and YouTube to show the cake my dad made so I don't waste your time in waiting AGAIN. He's a talented guy ;-; Very talented. He can cook, work handy, bake, fix nearly everything you put in his way, and uhhh, he plays instruments.

So um, yeah! I love you all so so much. Seriously, guys, I love y'all like friends and family. 

That's all for me! Bye slasherpack! See you in the next chapter!

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