Horror Slashers x Reader

The Digital Footprinting (Drama included)

I'm genuinely concerned now about my digital footprint. I want to... You know... Become a surgeon and be taken seriously, but ummmmmmm, knowing THIS exists? DUDE... I should just become a writer instead because omg...

I don't exactly know the full extent of digital footprinting... But I know that THIS is gonna be a part of mine, and HAHA... I'm scared. Not to mention the C.ai or Poly.ai stuff...

I really gotta consider what I do because good LORD am I gonna have an issue with this stuff... I hope I don't but I'm sure I will.

From my knowledge, digital footprinting is whatever you do online, such as social media, games, emails, websites, yada yada.

On top of that, it can also mention things like the cloud, whatever is saved to the cloud... HENCE, why I hate the cloud. It stores your data and photos without you even knowing, and you can't get rid of it.

It's the fact that hackers and others can pretty easily get into the cloud and take your pictures or videos that concerns me, because you can pretty simply be exploited or blackmailed, even doxxed. 

This is just a rant because I've currently been thinking about how to catch up on this book.

As for everything else, the person who had said to have suicidal thoughts is not my friend anymore. They told me they wanted to move on from our friendship, and I let them go instantly. It's nothing deep, I don't think, but when I discussed my boundaries on the group chat I was on with someone we'll name Tyga and J, my friend was quick to stop talking to me.

I cannot tell if it was based on what happened and they feel like they were being bothersome, or what, but I can confirm that Tyga, who always took (we'll call Tic Tac)'s side, are still friends. J and I are friends still, and he's the most supportive man I could ever hope for.

Tic Tac was someone who was extremely troubled, and being a Christian, I tried to help them through the morals of what God says. I didn't force them into religion or anything, but I did state what it takes to become a Born Again. 

They took it seriously multiple times but fell into the same rabbit hole of self-harm, and they were unable to stop their suicidal tendencies, so I had to help them differently.

This is when I came up with the roleplay method, where I distracted Tic Tac from their suicidal thoughts by roleplaying with them on Roblox. It worked momentarily, but because I was busy with work and school, I couldn't continue to roleplay every day, and that was the first real issue.

Tyga was someone who didn't care about the truth, and preferred feelings over truth, which, of course, I hated. He then wondered why I didn't like him so much. At the same time, Tic Tac was considered the golden child of the group chat, because they were younger than all of us.

I can understand it, so I'm not beefing with it, but it doesn't mean Tyga had to ignore EVERYTHING I said just because Tic Tac was ranting about something like Pokemon or Roleplaying (For context, I'd be venting).

I'd be looked over multiple times, and I'd be given vague advice, which led me to just leave the group chat alone for a while, and occasionally respond to a meme or something. Then when I decided to talk again, I apparently stressed out Tic Tac, and Tyga went off on me, forcing me to apologize and stay quiet for everything else.

Then, the final straw broke. 4th of August, I lost my friend. Not Tyga, J, or Tic Tac, but someone else that I knew for a while. He committed suicide, and that one night, I texted him and asked him if he was okay, because he wasn't out and about like he was usually. He said he was okay, and I left it at that... My fucking mistake.

So, after that, I was left with the group chat spamming me with memes, goofy things, and even vents. The weight of everything including the group chat completely destroyed me. 4 days AFTER my friend's suicide, the group chat went off AGAIN.