The Luna's Fated Choice

Chapter Three

Chapter Three: Tensions Rise

After the meeting, the day went on with a blur and Kiadaria did all she could to remain focused on her job as Luna. Her thoughts kept returning to the fact that Alpha Darius is her mate and also that there could be much conflict on the horizon. An unsettled feeling followed the entire day as she held the fear that Joshua sensed the bond and would storm into any moment to confront her on the lack of her rejecting the other male. 

"I can't just hate him and go off into the sunset with a handsome inexperienced stranger." Kiadaria writes the thought in her journal. 

Although she had not asked for the title of Luna, she took the position seriously and for years it's been her life's dedication. She has worked tirelessly to please Rising Moon pack and its alpha. So, in one way, she is plagued with loyalty to Joshua and their unofficial and unconsummated union. 

Putting away her journal and getting into bed, Kiadaria reflects on memories of Joshua's possessive and domineering affections. He's never taken her to bed but his rough kisses and forceful touches always left her feeling bad about herself. She doesn't want to like when he fondles her or makes her fondle him, but she orgasms. 

"If I don't like it then why does it feel good?" She thinks to herself, a bitter taste in her mouth as she can't deny the attraction she has for Joshua but also hates the memories of his intimate claims without consent. 

Kiadaria also knows she is a coward. She should have told Joshua she didn't feel the same way a long time ago but she has always understood that he wouldn't care. He sees her as his rightful claim. He's hit her before and broken bone, knocked out teeth as well but the wolf healing covers the signs of the abuse but not the mental and emotional scars she wears from it. 

Thinking back to Alpha Darius' words, and the way his eyes drank her in, makes Kiadaria consider for a moment peace. Her loins almost feel on fire as she thinks about her mate. It's a short lived thought as she puts out the glimmer of hope. "I'm bound to Joshua, he's killed over me. Entertaining Darius will ensure war." She whispers to herself in the dark. 

Her body goes shift because she smells his smokey and woodsy scent before she sees his outline in the dark room. Joshua has entered and she worries if he heard her words.  The bed dips as he gets in beside her. Joshua's arms envelope her like heavy chains of power and weight. His large and rough hands are on her back and beneath her clothing.  His dominance and his will are unmistakable even in the way his fingers splay across her skin. 

His blue eyes shine like rare gems in the dark. He pulls her into his iron hard chest. "You are my everything, my mate and my Luna. " He whispers near her ear and kisses below her earlobe. "I know the meeting went unwell and may have brought up some painful memories. I will never let them disrespectful you. You are Luna, you are MY Luna. I will never let you go...I will never choose another. It will always be you." 

Kiadaria finds it hard to position herself naturally. Although he's never taken her innocence she always worries when it will be the day that he will take things further than ever before. Her heart races with fear and the unknown. His hold tightens to a point of uncomfortable pain. "Please, Josh...let me go." She whispers. "I have a big day tomorrow with the festival coming up. Please..." She tries to push against him but there is no sign her effort moves him at all. 

He moves his hand into her bottoms and begins to knead her thick, firm, and bubble like asscheeks. "I'll never let you push me away. Do you know how much I need you? Do you know how much I love you? I'll kill everyone until it's only me and you because you're the only other being I need." 

Kiadaria has been made peace with the fact that Joshua doesn't care about what she wants or what she needs but that she is a good Luna. He rubs against her nub that is small and dry because she isn't aroused. It's never stopped him before, if anything he's learned to gently tease and flick the numb until it stands up and her intimate flesh is slick. He will continue to touch her until he gets the reaction he wants. For better or worse, he is her Alpha and he is her mate.