Vivid of Cloud

Chapter 12

I want people to tell me, what does it feel like to be loved and to be seen? And how not feeling any pain?

Walking down the hallway alone brought me a shievers in fear, I never expected this day to happen that I will see him again.

Tumingin ako sa relo habang naglalakad kasama si daddy, it was already 5:30 p.m and this is the last appointment of my dad for today.

I was wearing a black princess swing coat, with a tight white high neck cropped top. Kulay itim din ang suot kong flare pants, kakulay lang din nito ang peep toe pump heels.

"Take a breath, you look nervous."

Kumurap ako ng mga mata nang marinig ang natatawang saad ni dad bago kami pumasok ng restaurant, he knows that I never saw Cloud after all this time!

Matagal kaming nasa Davao and when we decided to go back here in Cebu, at sila talaga ang una naming kikitain?! it's been years, when Cloud took law and when I graduated in college, umuwi siya rito but we are in Davao that time.

After ko kasing makagraduate rito sa Cebu, sumunod na kaagad ako kay daddy na may bagong branch ng kompany miya ro'n. I practiced there. Tapos ngayon ni-hire ako ni daddy na secretary niya because he was preparing me for something, 'yun ang sabi niya.

And Cloud was a new elected mayor, balita ko 'yan mula kay daddy. I couldn't help but smile, been proud of him kahit na medyo masakit pa.

Besides, the pain was still there. Our last encounter was never good, I remembered how I cried so hard after all. Sana nga ay nakalimutan niya na 'yun lalo na kung gaano ako kakabwesit dati.

Feelings for me never fade, kaya I always admit na nandito pa rin. I never seen him again for total 7 years, dapat nga wala na 'tong nararamdaman ko lalo na at masakit huling salita na sinabi niya sa akin.

But I am still a human.

I have a different heart for someone, this part of me never forgets. Kahit ilang iyak at sira pa nito sa kanya.

While we are walking, I stopped when I saw the VIP room of the restaurant. Si Dad naman ay pinagbuksan na ng guard naming kasama, habang ako ay nakatingin pa rin sa pinto.

I was overthinking, papasok na ba ako? Shit?! Anong sasabihin ko? Should I smile? Or what if uuwi na lang ako at maghahanap na lang ng apartment since gusto kong mag-separate mula sa bahay.

"Ma'am? Pasok na ho kayo." I heard our guard.

Binigyan ko siya ng naiilang na ngiti, "Tell my dad na nasa restroom ako. I need to retouch." I said and didn't let him speak kasi tumakbo na kaagad ako sa malapit na restroom.

Ilang segundo pa ay wala akong pakialam sa mga babaeng tumitingin sa akin ngayon sa loob ng restroom, kahit ang nakabantay na babaeng crew ng restaurant ay kanina pa siguro nakatingin sa akin ngayon.

I was smiling and practicing in front of the mirror, mukha na talaga akong baliw pero wala akong pakialam dahil ang importante ay maganda ako. I even fix my curled black hair, this look better on me talaga kaya confident akong sabihin na maganda ako.

"Ate, maganda na ho kayo. Kamukha niyo po 'yung singer na si Julie Ann San Jose noong kabataan niya." Bigla akong napatingin sa batang babae na nakatingin sa akin, she was looking at me with stars on her eyes.

"H-ha? Ah. . . salamat." Nahihiya kong saad bago tagumpay na tumingin ulit sa salamit, parang namula na rin ang pisnge ko dahil sa sinabi niya.

Many people who will encounter me for the first time will always say that, I even found it amazing. Because my beauty resembles of one iconic person, it was like the face that I have is like a baby vibes one pero in a very good and beautiful way.