You're in my Seat ~ M. Sturniolo

Chapter nine - ava

Another stupid morning. At least it was Saturday. I walked out to the quiet living room and laid on the couch. I put on my comfort show, Gilmore Girls, and watched it until I got hungry for breakfast. I made myself some toast and continued my show.

I didn't even finish my second piece. I had almost completely lost my appetite since everything had gone down. When I'm stressed, I don't eat, because when I was younger I used to binge so I taught myself to not do it at all and it kind of stuck with me. I know it's not the best habit, but I could be doing worse.

My dad had recently started working on the weekends so Saturdays were usually spent by myself.

My phone starts to vibrate and I look down to see I'm getting a FaceTime from Chris. I ignore it and continue watching my show until my dad came home.

"Hey honey. How was your day?" He asked, walking in the door. "It was fine. How was yours?" I ask back. "It was fine" he answers. He joined me on the couch and we put on a movie.

"You want dinner?" he asked. "Not really in the mood" I reply. "Viv, you have to eat something" he says to me concerned. "I did. I ate a big lunch" I lied. I think my dad could tell I was lying but didn't want to keep pushing it since he knew what I was going through.

We finished our movie and went to our rooms. What an eventful day. Not that I'm complaining or anything. I enjoy staying at home all day every once in a while. It just felt empty without Peyton.

As corny as it is, she had always been my best friend, despite being 4 years younger. Well, 3 now that her 13th birthday just passed. I can't believe I missed her becoming a teenager.

After being all in my thoughts for a while, I started crying. I couldn't help it, I just had to. So much was happening right now between, school, friends, Peyton and everything else in between. I did what I usually did in these types of situations and called my best friend Ava. She always helped me get through hard times.

"Just let go and live your life already" she told me.

"It's not that easy Ava"

"Look Viv, some of these are problems that are out of your control. So stop worrying about them as if you have to make a decision or something. You're just making it harder on yourself by worrying so much." she took a sip of her drink.

"Okay. I'll try to relax a little bit" I gave in, realizing she was probably right.

"Oh also, you should talk to the triplets. They seem really nice from what I've heard, well besides Matt, but the other two seem like they really care! You shouldn't shut them out. You should really tell them what's going on" she said.

"I know. I just" I hesitated, "I'm scared to tell them. What if they don't want to deal with all my bullshit or they're mad at me for ignoring them"

"First of all, what you're going through, is not bullshit. If they think that, they're terrible people that you don't want to be around to begin with. Secondly, from the way your putting it, they seem more concerned than anything. They want you to come back. They won't be mad if you just explain yourself"

"Thanks Ava. I love you so much" I smile.

"Love you too bitch" she smiled back.

We talked for a few more hours and ended the call by midnight and I fell asleep. The next day was exactly the same as the today was.

Joemommasmells69 Messages:

Hey Yall!

This was def a filler but I wanted to include some of the smaller details in here.

I'm so tired dude

Suggestion, tips, ideas, questions, comments, concerns please comment here

Don't forget to eat and drink (notice my lack of aggression today 😊)

Love ya!

-Joemommasmells69