I Love You - B.E.

Chapter Seventeen - Y/n

"So what is it? Like a month before you're off going on tour again?" I ask Billie watching as she puts her clothes back on.

"Yup," she says and walks into her bathroom. "And I'm having a party three nights before the very first show," I nod. "You are coming to that, right?"

"Yeah, I am. I'm making sure that I don't work that day," I reassure her. She walks back into the room with a smile on her face. She starts walking by me but I grab her wrist and pull her onto my lap. I rest my hands on the top of her thighs. She smiles looking at me with our faces only inches apart. I kiss her softly. She pulls away.

"Don't do that. I need to get going and I don't need you distracting me," she says trying to get off of me but I wrap my arms around her and lay down, holding her close to me. "Y/n, I swear, let me go. I have things to do."

"No, just stay with me," I beg her. She laughs, looking at me. Now she kisses me. She puts one of her legs between mine and gently presses her thigh against me. I let out a muffled moan. I feel her smile against my lips. I slowly move my hips against her leg, letting out soft moans. She pulls away from the kiss and stands up.

"I have to go. I'll be back later," she says. I sigh and sit up.

"You're not fun," I whine.

"Mhm, sure," she hums.

"You're seeing someone else, aren't you?" I joke. She gets a surprised look on her face and she smiles.

"I know you did not just say that to me," I shrug.

"Maybe, I am," now I get a surprised look on my face. I really hope she's kidding. " I'm gonna go. I'll see you later," she says as she leaves.

I don't know what I'm doing or why I'm doing it. I never wanted to get into this kind of situation with Billie. I wanted to just be able to be friends no matter how much I liked her. Now I feel like we're in too deep. We've been hooking up for a few months now and I don't want to say anything and ruin something between us. I really liked our friendship and I really like what we're doing now. I just like the relationship we have now. We're friends who hook up occasionally, more like every day, but can still go out as friends and do anything as friends. I guess she has the same intentions I do. Just to have a little friends-with-benefits thing for a little while. I know it hasn't been directly said but I feel like if Billie wasn't okay with something, she would definitely say it. And so would I. But there hasn't been anything that I haven't been okay with.

I do really like her. I love everything about her. She makes me happy and I love being around her. It doesn't matter what we're doing. Just as long as we're together, I'm okay. We're either always at her place or always at my place. We'll stay at my house for a couple of weeks and then move to her house. At this point, we should just move in together. But I feel like that would be too much. I mean, even if I do stay at her house every night for a week I can always go home at any point. If we lived together I wouldn't be able to just leave and go to my house whenever I feel like it. I would just have to stay there. Or leave for a bit and then come back. It just feels like more pressure if I had to live with her, or anybody else for that matter.

I really don't know what to do. I don't work today and usually, when I have nothing to do I'm in bed all day with Billie. But apparently, she had made plans with Zoe so she couldn't be in bed with me all day.

I got into the shower and looked at all the hickies on my body. I smile looking at them. Billie definitely has more on her body than I do but she has left a good amount on me. I spent the rest of the day lying around and doing nothing.

At around six, I hear the front door open. Billie's home. I get up and go downstairs and meet her in the kitchen. I wrap my arms around her waist and rest my head on her shoulder. She smiles.

"Hi," she says.

"Hi, baby. How was your day?" I ask her.

"It was good. I had a great time,"

"That's good," I say and she turns around to face me.

"How was your day?" She asks with a smile on her face.

"Boring,"

"Awe, why's that?" She asks with a sarcastic tone. I roll my eyes.

"I was here by myself all day with absolutely nothing to do. You weren't here," I joke. She laughs.

"Well, I had plans and I can't spend every second with you. Even though I practically do that anyway," she says. She pulls away from me, walks over to the fridge, and opens it. "I brought you food home," she hands me a to-go box and I take it.

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Lately, I haven't really been able to see Billie. She's been too busy trying to get ready for the tour to start and focusing all of her energy on trying to make sure everything goes right. Don't get me wrong I understand why I haven't seen her but I really do miss her. We can't even hang out and even if we do she's always distracted by something and nearly all of the time it's something to do with the tour. I just want to be around her before she starts going around the world here in a few weeks. At the very least we have the party she's having and I'll be able to see her then.