I Love You - B.E.

Chapter Twenty-Two - Billie

-⚠️smut warning, really long chapter⚠️-

I'm sitting in my hotel room in the middle of fucking nowhere, Europe trying to figure out what I want to do. A part of me wants to do something I might regret but also I know that I probably shouldn't. It might be a bad idea.

I really want to text Y/n. Just to talk to her again. It's been six months. I had figured that by this point I would've moved on and been over it. Apparently not. But I really feel like texting her wouldn't be the best option. She could easily just not respond. I would if I were her. I was a complete bitch and kind of overreacting. It just hurt when I saw her with someone else after we had spent months hooking up and basically acting like we were dating. But we weren't so it shouldn't have mattered that much.

I've thought about going to her house and just showing up and talking to her but I wouldn't be able to do that for another year because I'm on tour. But as I think about it, I have a show tonight but after that, I don't have another one for five days and we don't go to our next place for another three days after tonight's show, so I could always go to LA for a few days and come back.

I'll have to think about it.

There's a knock at my hotel door and I get up to answer it. When I do, I see Finneas standing there.

"You ready to go?" He asks and I nod. "Let's go then,"

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During the entire show, all I can think about is catching a flight back to LA. I really want to talk to her and see her in person. I know I shouldn't and it's probably a bad idea but I really want to. About halfway through the show, I made the decision that I would get a last-minute flight to LA and go to her house. It's gonna be really late though. I'm still doing it. I can't think about it anymore or else I'll change my mind.

After the show, I found my way back to my parents and Claudia. Everybody starts grabbing their stuff and starts making their way to the car. I noticed Claudia had left her phone on the table. I quickly grab it and start making my way to the car. What if I text Y/n on her phone? Would she question it? Probably. I don't think they've talked since the party either.

When I get back to the hotel I start looking for flights back to LA. After a few minutes of searching, I finally found one that leaves tonight at three in the morning. I can do that. It's gonna be really late when I get to LA but it's gonna have to work. I quickly shower and leave the hotel. Hopefully, nobody comes to my room. Maybe they'll think I'm asleep or something.

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I find my seat and it's really cramped but this is what I get for choosing a last-minute flight. But it's okay it won't be very long and I didn't bring any luggage with me. If I need anything I can just stop by my house. However, I don't have a car so I don't know how to get around places. I'll have to figure that out later. Right now I just need to think about what I want to say to Y/n.

By the time I landed in LA, I ended up texting Zoe to come get me. She doesn't question it until I get into her car.

"Why the fuck are you in LA? You're supposed to be on tour? Why are you by yourself? Does anybody know know where you are?" She asks so many questions.

"I have something I need to do. Nobody knows I'm here and they're not gonna know so don't say anything to anybody," she nods. "Take me to my house so I can get my car,"

"Okay," she says and does exactly that. I quickly get into my car and make my way to Y/n's house. I know it's late but I'm pretty sure she'd still be awake by now. Besides, she just got off work.

By the time I got to her house, it was almost eleven. I slowly walked up to her front door and hesitated for a moment before I knocked on the door. Please answer. Please don't tell me I wasted my time waiting just for you to be asleep. I knock again. Maybe I wasted my time. Just as I was about to walk away, the door opened and I was face to face with Y/n. I smile a little.