Trust Your family, Family Has Your Back

chapter 29

Chapter 29
Jason Starlite

  I sitting here watching my lovebug. Why am I calling her in my head lovebug. I better not call her that in real. I can see everyone beating me up. You can see in their eyes they love her. It doesn't look like sexual love.
   These are some great people. You can tell they truly love to help others and make a difference even if just one person at a time. The bonds they have even with the older groups. I wish Sam was like this. Did he have me fool this whole time or did what's her name Kira, Kali Karina Karla maybe Kayli. I dont know. Her last name was a gun name. Remington,  Colt, Winchester, Rugar. I don't know. I guess she would be pretty if she lose her sour expression.
   Ooo look she so cute. Even with the road rash on the side of her face. She looks like a angel my little lovebug. I want to do like you see old wemon do to children in movies  and squeeze her cheeks. I didn't believe in love at first sight before. I always thought that was just lust at first sight. I don't feel any lust for her. Maybe that's because she looks like a 12 year old, a small 12 year old. Or a tall 10 or 11 year old. Yuk men  like that need there neither region cut off and burned while they are awake. 
  Aaww she yawned that was so cute. Wait I might be creeping her out watching her. She dont seem to be watching me watch her. Maybe I need look at my phone. Ok have my phone out. Let me take one picture.  There set to background. Am I a pervert because I love watching her even if it's not sexual feelings. I see Victor walk in. Hes a handsome man too. Dont even go there Mr Starlite. I'm sure he don't like men like that. I mean look at all the tasty men in the group. I don't feel attracted to any of them sexually not even Victor who I feel a bond to.
Aaww look at little lovebug trying to pull Victor on to the bed. There he goes getting in to bed with her. Aaww look at her curled up with her back up against him. Now she props the tablet on his arm. That was adorable shes using him like a  backrest to watch her show. I see him chuckling when he sees what she did. I can't help but laugh.
  I see MrB coming in. He looks questioning at us. So I get up and go to him. I talk softly,"she had pulled him up on the bed only so she could use him as a backrest and tablet holder." He looks over at her and smiles.
   "Mr Starlite please watch over Victor. He even now looks like hes about to pass out. He didn't get to rest earlier. He had that meeting and made stressful decisions even if he was ready to make them. The terrible text messages from his parents, finding out he is now considered an adult, and that panic attack. He might even have nightmares. I would have stayed and slept here to be here for him. I can see he feels a bond with you even if he doesn't understand it. But I know my men even if I'm only few years older, I feel I raised them." The love this man has and hides from his family is very deep.
  "I will watch over them both dont worry." He nods then goes over to lovebug said something to her then kisses her cheek and leaves.
  I watch as Victor snuggles into lovebug and closes his eyes. I can tell hes fighting not to sleep. I see lovebug fuzzy blanket. I pick it up and unfold it walk over and cover them both with it. "Sleep Victor I'm watching you both . You can rest. I have your back." I say gently. I see lovebug  half asleep. I bend over and kiss her cheek. "Go to sleep lovebug I'm watching over you." I see her smile as she falls asleep.
  I go back to the sofa and pull my phone out. My parents should be awake still.

Me: Hi da and dad if you are awake.

Da: I'm awake just making me and your dad a snack. Are you ok? ...What's wrong son. ...I can feel it just from one text. ...And I'm telling you if you ask 'if you are awake' and not just call me. Because you afraid to call me and wake me. I'm going  come there and spank you. ......Dont you tell me you to old to spank you are not. You my little man my son.... I love you. Why are you not answering me. ...Son did you hang up on me..... oo I need to hit the send button  ..... why isn't sending 

Dad sorry sun I had to go push send on your da's phone. How r u sun.

Me: I'm ok but I'm not with Sam as a family anymore.  I still need talk to Mr Bubbles. Not officially but I'm with another group they agreed with  a temporary adoption. Or trial I really like them and they me. Some I already met before.