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Tae POV The lingering scent of barbecue filled my nostrils as I stepped out of my car, and I could feel the burning sun on my skin. I could hear the sweet sound of kickback music, and I could hear the sound of children screaming in pure joy. My homeboy invited me to this lil kickback he was throwing, and I agreed to come since I haven't seen him in a while.
As I made my way to his backyard, I could see familiar faces as they came to greet me with daps and hugs. My stomach started to growl from how good the greasy food smelled, and I was ready to fill my plate with food. After greeting everybody, I was really looking for one specific face, and I had yet to see him. Dismissing the thought, I made my way to the white table filled with food and began fixing my plate.
As I sat down, I engaged in conversation with my homeboy, and it was good to catch up with him. Truth be told, if it wasn't for him always having my back, who knows where I would've been. Me and Jay go way back; his mother was great friends with my mom, so we naturally gravitated towards each other.
"Aye Jay, where's lil Cam at? I haven't seen him in a while," I asked curiously.
"He said he was on the way; you know it takes that nigga forever to get ready," Jay answered.
I laughed because that was indeed true.
Nobody knew of the past relationship I had with Cam. I was too deep in the closet, and I had no intention of coming out despite my love for him. When he found out I had a baby on him, he nearly destroyed my house in a fit of rage. He wasn't fucking with me at all after that and I half expected him to take me back.
A familiar face came into view, and my eyes never left him as he was greeted with nothing but love. It seemed like time slowed down as I looked at his pearly white smile, and I could tell he smelled good as hell. His smile dropped the second he looked at me, but he quickly covered it up. As I eyed his body, I had to fight the surging feeling of arousal as my eyes took him in. It seemed like time made him thicker than he previously was back then.
He came up to his brother, and he gave him a loving hug, and I so badly wanted to reach out and touch him, but I fought against it. He looked at me, and his face was void of emotion; I knew he probably wasn't expecting me to be here. As he made his way into the house, I followed him, ignoring the curious stares from his family.
"Aye, hold on," I said, grabbing his arm.
When I touched him, he jerked his arm away with pure anger, as if my touch burned him.
"Don't touch me; you don't have the right to do that," he angrily yelled with tears flowing down his eyes.
"I'm sorry ian seen you in a while. How have you been?" I asked.
He looked at me as if I was the dumbest nigga on earth.
"Really, after all the shit that went down, you have the nerve to ask me how I'm doing? I don't have anything to say to you other than get the fuck out of my face," he angrily spouted.
"I know I never apologized for cheating on you, but ian on the shit no more I miss you for real, lil bit," I declared truthfully.
"I don't care, Tae; a simple I'm sorry won't change the past. A simple I'm sorry won't change the fact that you had a whole baby on me. A simple I'm sorry won't change the fact that I was so good to you. But none of that matters. Stay away from me," he said as he tried to walk away from me.
"Cam, please. I can't let you go without you hearing what I have to say."
He huffed but made no effort to move.
"I know I'm sorry won't change the past, but I really messed up what we had. I know I love you without a doubt, but at the time, a nigga was afraid of everybody viewing me differently. I know that's not an excuse for cheating, but I let shit get to my head, and in the process, I broke my promise to you. Seeing you hurt kept me up for many nights. I beat myself up thinking about how I messed up, but I need you to know I'm deeply sorry for everything, lil bit. It was never my intention to hurt you, but I did it anyway. I'm not saying this in hopes of us getting back together, but I'm saying this from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry, Cam."
After pretty much pouring my heart out, I was met with silence. My gaze met his, and his brown eyes filled with tears.
"Why did you do that to me, Tae? What did I ever do to you for you to treat me like that? Was I not enough?" he asked, sobbing.
I had no words to say, so I brought his body into my chest. I could feel his sad tears soaking my shirt, but I didn't care. Hearing him break down like this brought tears to my eyes.
He needed this just as much as I did, and we sat in each other's embrace for what felt like hours.
