Hating Emilia

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-Emilia Diaz-

I haven't gone back to school yet, I just haven't felt like it, my parents are okay with it..

Winter break is coming up, I don't know if I'll go to school for the last few days until January.

But I do have Ethan's gift planned, I just have to pick it up when it's done.

Ive been struggling to eat a lot recently, especially after that whole thing with Mr. Delaney, I don't even know what'll happen with him.

Will he get fired? What if he doesn't and he does it again- or something worse?

I'm scared.

I pull the blanket closer to me staring at the same spot, there's a knock on my door and I don't even have the energy to answer

My mom opens the door "hey, I was wondering if you're okay?" She asks, I shrugged "can I come in?" I nodded.

Mom shuts the door and she sits next to me "I was wondering...do you wanna do anything today?" I shrugged at her question.

She bites her lip and thinks "we can watch sleeping beauty, and make something? Your father bought animal crackers and raspberries." She tells me.

"Did he actually?" I asked and my mom nodded "he bought the last of each." She said and I nodded this time

"Bambis been sleeping outside your door recently, Ellie's come by too." Mom tells me.

I hold back my tears "I don't wanna go back." My voice cracks, my moms eyes soften "I know, Em.."

"What's gonna happen with Mr. Delaney?" I asked, mom sighed "we're trying to get him fired, Em, I promise you, if you want to, we'll try our best to switch classes." She tells me

"What about schools?" I asked, my mother looks at me "Em..it's already late in the year, you'll be behind, you put enough pressure on yourself." She tells me I get up and turn to my mother

"No I won't, I-I can start the work now, and-and finish it." I ramble

"Emilia, it's not fair to you." She said and I sighed slumping back into bed "if you want we can still watch sleeping beauty, and bake..." she suggested

"Christmas cookies?" I asked, my mom nodded with a smile "whatever you want, and if you want we can order something for you to eat" she tells me

I nodded slowly, mom gets up and leaves my room, I rub my eyes and get out of bed for the first time in a few days.

My bed is basically the only thing that's really kept me protected from the reality of what happened.

When I saw the bruises the day after, while getting ready for school I cried, and had a panic attack.

My father saw me on the floor shaking and crying because of it, then they both decide I wasn't going back to school until I was better.

The bruises are fading now, I check for them in the mirror and don't see them, I turn the shower on and get in, washing my hair.

I throw on a new pair of sweats and a hoodie, I took a breath before opening my bedroom door

I walk downstairs and see my mom looking in the fridge, I walk over to her and she smiled "do you want raspberries?" She asked and I nodded

My mother hands me the container of raspberries and I go and wash them, sitting on the couch with her, she turns sleeping beauty on.

I share the raspberries with her, not wanting to be the only one eating, Bambi rests her head on me and lays there