Hating Emilia

18

-Emilia Diaz-
*TW*

I've been waiting for our test grades to come back. I'm terrified to see how I did.

What if I fail? I hope I didn't, I really hope I didn't. I need to get into a good school.

When the chemistry test gets handed to me I feel nervous, I take a deep breath and the it over.

Staring at an eighty eight, the eighty eight staring right back at me.

My nails dig into my palms the more I stare at it, I shove the test into my bag and get up when the bell rings.

I'm disappointed in myself.

What are my parents gonna think? What are colleges gonna think?

My nails dig harder into my palms, I feel dizzy, I feel sick, most likely because as soon as I got here I threw up whatever I ate.

"Emilia?" I hear I stare at Ethan "What's wrong?" He asked, I shook my head "nothing, everything is great" I tell him.

Ethan shook his head "I know that your nervous, what's wrong?" He asked me

"Nothing is wrong with me!" I tell him I walk away from him and open the bathroom door going to one of the stalls, locking it.

I slide down the wall and hug myself, I feel like the walls are collapsing on me, I feel like my throat is getting tighter and tighter as each second passes.

What's happening to me?

I search for my phone is my bag repeatedly pressing on my brothers contact.

"Please" I beg, I plead for him to pick up and just get me out of here. But he doesn't.

And I now realize he's in class. Which I should be in class too. But I'm not, I'm sitting on the bathroom stall like a crybaby.

I force myself up getting dizzy, I throw water on my face and make it look like I wasn't crying.

Silas: hey, em, is everything alright?

I stare at the notification and ignore it so it seems like I'm in class and it was just an accident, just act like you didn't call him.

I leave the bathroom and notice Alex and Josh talking, then they see me and Alex gives me a smirk before walking over to me.

"Hey Emilia" he says as Josh stands right next to me "hi Alex" I say

"Skipping class are we?" Josh said and I shrugged and he grinned "what were you doing in there?" Josh asked

"Why does it matter?" I asked Alex moved closer to me and I back up against the wall "were you and Ethan in there doing something? Like you did last night?" He asks

My eyes widened, how did they know Ethan and I hung out last night. "She didn't deny it." Josh smirked

"What were you two doing? Were you giving him a good time, Emilia?" He asked me, I tilt my head, what does he mean 'good time'

"Could you give us a good time? Maybe we could take you out tonight, see what's so good about you." Alex said this time his finger skims over my shirt, I don't like it.

I shake my head "I'm- I'm okay." I stutter "aw, she has the stutter back, how cute." Josh mocked

"Come on, we can show you some fun, maybe we can leave now and do it" he grinned "I know great places we can go, Emilia." Josh whispered in my ear. Do what?

"Please leave me alone" my voice is shaky, I feel Josh's hand on my shoulder, squeezing it repeatedly, so badly it hurts. "Come on, please? I'd really love to have you hang out with me." He pleads I feel his breath on my neck, I bite my lip, my nails dig into my palms.