Innocent {Jackie young}

Chapter 22

Jackie🌟
So chenn and I haven't talked for about 5 hours and my game is tonight so I really got to get my in the game. I feel like the more we argue the less I wanna be with her because every little thing she does p*sees me off and everything I do she's insecure about.

I sat beside Aja and we stretched. We don't play for another few hours so our coach just gave us time to chill. We all sat in a circle and just talked about life. This is a group of girls I can trust so we can't really lie to each other about anything.

I love being a part of a closely knitted community of women's basketball players. It gets me away from the toxicity that I've been dealing with lately.

"tell us about your cutesy relationship jack" Sabrina said as they all listened.

honestly, I don't know what side of the relationship most of yall have seen. I know some have seen the good, bad and ugly. And right now, I don't know what to do anymore. Chenn and I have been arguing constantly. It's like we can't go a day without fighting.

"What's been going on? Why are you two arguing so much?" Jewel asked.

"Well, she told me she'd watch me play, but she hasn't flown out to see any of my games. She lied to me." I said being in my feeling and really hurt because I feel like her presence matters.

"How do you know she wasn't talking about watching you on TV or something?" Aja asked me shrugging.

"I asked her about it, and she made an excuse that she was sick and needed to go to the hospital. Who are you to lie about that." I said rolling my eyes.

"Exactly. So how do you know she really isn't sick and didn't need to go to the hospital?" Alyssa asked me.

"I just feel like she's not being honest with me. She probably thinks I really don't care so why does it matter to be honest."

"but yall I really do care, like I love this woman with everything in me. And I want us to work but it's not working. It's like we do better when we're not talking. When we are talking we're arguing." I said explaining to the group.

"Jackie, it sounds like you're looking for reasons to argue. Maybe it would be best if you and Chenn separated for a while. You're both draining each other." Chelsea said.

"I agree, like I definitely believe in right person wrong timing and this is just the wrong time. I see the love you two have for each other but this is just one of those humps you guys gotta get over separately, it's not working together." Kelsey said.

"believe me, I do know." She added.

It took me a while and I did think long and hard and I do believe they're right. I feel like we both ain't sh*t to each other.

We're wasting each other's time and we're not beneficial at all for each other right now. If she is my one the right time will come and I do believe that.

GAME TIME.

Chennedy🥀
I turned on my tv while I ate a little bit of ice cream. Even though she doesn't understand me, I still love her.

"do you actually believe you guys will work?" Kamilla asked me out nowhere.

"nope." I said shaking my head.

"I mean she accused you of lying about GOING TO THE HOSPITAL. Who lies about that." She said to me.

"I don't believe there's nobody else for me. But I believe as of right now, she's not for me, and what's for me will find me when the time is right." I said with kamilla nodding in proudness.

Jackie🌟
We won the game I finished with 19 pts. I feel like the talk with the girls really worked. I love being able to talk about such mature topics with such mature women.

After we celebrated I felt like my night wouldn't be complete if I didn't do what my heart was telling me to do all along.

I grabbed my phone and texted Chennedy. I hope she's up. If she's not it's just another uneasy night for me.

MYLOVEE🩷🫶🏾- Chenn... we need to talk. And I'm not gonna eat around the bush about it but this constant arguing... it's tearing us apart.

LOVERR💘🤞🏾- if there's one thing we can agree on. I hate that we're always fighting. You don't trust me enough for us to be in a relationship though.

MYLOVEE🩷🫶🏾- I've been thinking a lot, and I think we might need to take a break. Just some time apart to figure things out. You're insecure.

LOVER💘🤞🏾- not insecure you're just worldly. But anyways I think a break is exactly what we need. If we keep trying right now, it's not gone work. 🫱🏽‍🫲🏾.

MYLOVEE🩷🫶🏾- I don't know if it's the answer, but I think it might help us see things more clearly. I love you, Chenn, but right now, we're not good for each other.

LOVERR💘🤞🏾- I love you too, I'm knowing. And that's why this hurts so much. But maybe you're right. Maybe some time apart will give us the space we need to understand what we really want.

MYLOVEE🩷🫶🏾- and It's not that I don't want to be with you. I just think we need to heal and grow individually before we can be good together again.

LOVERR💘🤞🏾- I get it. I really do. And I want us to be happy, whether that's together or apart. If a break is what we need, then I'm willing to try.

MYLOVEE🩷🫶🏾- This isn't goodbye forever. It's just a pause. We'll take this time to work on ourselves, and maybe we'll find our way back to each other stronger than before.

LOVERR💘🤞🏾- yea.... And I was at the hospital too. I have a peptic ulcer whatever that is. but I'll heal. until next time.... ig.

I liked the message and then took a deep breath. Regardless of how much we argue I wasn't ready for that.

I know imma miss her like h*ll but I know it's for the best. and I know we'll find a way. back to each other. and if there isn't one we'll make one, apart from each other... but we'll leave. Together.

A/N: why I almost got emotional 🥲? Nah I'm jk. But they taking a break cause they so dern toxic it's ridiculous! I feel like this is good for them! The book is back on track and I know what I want to do to finish it off. Hopefully I can finish it by the end of this week or next week cause I'm so inconsistent 🥳 but let me know what yall think!

🚨IMPORTANT 🚨
for all who said do Jackie x a fem, any random fem or who yall want? I need details I need everything, lol so comment cause imma do it for real!

Also do yall have yall books on swipe or scroll cause scroll ugly to me. Anyways that's it yall! Byeeee!! Xoxo hehe!