Married to Mr. Reid

Chapter 34

Isaac

Maybe somewhere, I am to blame for saying yes to this marriage even after knowing everything...

...while I do believe you were unnecessarily harsh on me sometimes, you too were suffering in your own way.

If things get intimate between us, it'll complicate everything and I can't do that to you or myself... we both need our freedom.

Her words kept replaying in my head, they weren't something I was expecting from her, even after everything I've put her through she's ready to blame herself for deciding to marry me. I don't know what it is she's made of but I'm sure I don't deserve her, she deserves someone who's a hundred times better than me. Her saying that she regrets our kiss, her hesitation in getting intimate with me, the way she's determined on getting a divorce and setting herself free from me, hurts. I don't know what has gotten into me but it seems like I'm suddenly obsessed with the woman I claimed to hate only a few weeks ago.

I pinch the bridge of my nose in annoyance as I pace inside my room, thinking about her. I know she deserves better but I'm quite selfish... I want her for myself, I want us to have a future together, whatever doubts were there in my mind got cleared the moment she tried to take the blame on herself for marrying me, when she tried to justify my cruel behavior towards her even though it's clear that she's the one who has had to suffer the most in this marriage. From being manipulated by my dad into marrying me to me being a total ass to her after our marriage, she has had to endure a lot!

I was hurt when she told me that she regretted kissing me and left her room in anger, but I've reflected on everything she said and she's right, I've always hated her and made sure that she knows about it, so why should she take chances on an Isaac-free life after five months?

I have to win her heart and for that, I need to win her trust. I need her to see that I can change for her and in order to make her see that, I will have to be a good friend to her first and forget about the sexual attraction I feel everytime she's near me.

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"Are you okay?" I asked Amber for the hundredth time as we entered our home and she nodded saying "I'm fine Isaac, you're annoying me now."

The episode with Suzie was something, I didn't know she was at the party otherwise I wouldn't have gone there. I know I have a past with her but it's just that: past, my present involves someone else and so will my future. The way Suzie acted was disrespectful and I'll make sure she never crosses Amber's path again.

"I'm going to sleep, good night" she said and without giving me a chance to respond she hurriedly went upstairs, leaving me standing in the living room all alone. I know what Suzie said was upsetting but Amber is one of the most understanding people I know, it's unlike her to be so hurt about such a stupid thing.

Part of me wanted to go to her and console her, but I know that isn't the best idea, she's made it clear that she doesn't want to talk right now and I'll just have to wait. Slowly, I make my way upstairs and go to my room. God, I can't wait for the day when she'd start staying in my room again, on my bed and in my arms.

I dozed off as soon as I hit the bed and woke up to the sharp ringing of my alarm. Last night's events came running back to my mind but I shook them off and got ready for the office, can't be late today. I have an important meeting with Jack and some special clients.

I went downstairs and found the breakfast table empty. "Has Amber eaten her breakfast?" I asked Christine when she brought my coffee and she shook her head.

"No sir, she hasn't come down yet" Christine added. That's strange, she's an early bird, it's unlike her to sleep in so late, especially because she has work to do.

"Okay" I say giving a slight nod to Christine, I got up to go check in on her but my phone started ringing at that moment, it was Jack, I know he'll start nagging me for being late.

"Hello" I answer pressing the phone to my ear. "Where are you? Mr. Scott has rescheduled the meeting to 10 am for some unknown reason and you need to bring your ass here right now" he ordered and I rolled my eyes, Jack might be playful and easygoing but when it comes to business, he's super strict about it.

"Calm down will you? I'm on my way" I say in a super chill voice which I'm sure will annoy the fuck out of him. "You and Alex are the most lazy people I know!" I hear him exclaim from the other end before cutting the line in anger. I laugh at his behaviour, this dude is something.

It's 9:10 already and I need to reach by 9:40 and have a word with Jack before the meeting starts. The office isn't far away but I'm afraid I don't have the time to go and check in on Amber. I called Christine and told her to take care of Amber and see that she's alright in my absence.

I reached my office on time and prepared everything that was needed for the meeting with Jack. Turns out, Mr. Scott has a lunch date with her wife today and that's why the meeting was rescheduled to an earlier hour... the bastard.

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"Hey Isaac, can I have a word with you?" Jack asked me as soon as we were done with the meeting.

"Sure, what is it?" I asked.

"How is Amber doing?" he asked looking concerned and that made me angry, call me selfish but I don't like the way he's so hooked on Amber.

"Fine, I guess. We didn't talk last night because she didn't want to and I didn't get the chance to talk with her this morning because of our meeting, I'll go home now and see how she's doing" I said honestly, Jack was there so he knows what happened and he knows how it must've hurt Amber.

"I don't know if Amber has told you about this, but before you came, Suzie said something to Amber about her not being good enough for you, though Amber gave her a befitting reply, I still think Suzie's words might've made a deep impact on her" Jack explained.

"Tell me everything, I need to know everything" I demanded already feeling angry towards Suzie, she'll regret hurting her. No wonder Amber was acting like that last night. God I should've been there for her, I shouldn't have let her go out of my sight!