Married to Mr. Reid

Chapter 36

Amber

"So much for being friends" Isaac said with his voice raised and left the room. He was angry but so was I, and I wasn't just angry at Suzie but everyone around me, Isaac and Jack included. I'm tired of pretending to be unbothered by what people think and say about me.

I don't care if my anger ruins my supposed friendship with my husband but this time, he will have to learn to keep his anger in check, not me. He has no fucking idea about the shit I've been through and how hard it was for me to get out of the darkness and finally see the light. It was Tyler who saved me, saw the real me, loved me for who I was and now he's gone. No one will ever understand me the way Tyler did, no one will love me the way he did... God, at this point I'm unsure if I'll ever find love again in my life!

Tears start rolling down my cheeks but I wipe them away, I'm not going to cry now, it's of no use, my tears won't bring Tyler back and they certainly won't help me deal with Isaac. I go to my desk and sit down, I haven't submitted today's manuscripts yet, I have to start now or I won't be able to submit them on time.

It took me almost five hours to finish proofreading the manuscripts after which I submitted my work and logged out for the day. It's already 7:00, I need to get something to eat, I'm starving but I hope I don't run into Isaac, I'm still mad at him.

How can he treat everything so lightly? Expecting me to be chill about his friend's misbehaviour towards me when he himself can't tolerate it when I misbehave with him?! I'll admit, I lost my cool but I was hurting, reliving a past I didn't want to, I know it was all in my head but how can he expect me to be understanding towards someone like Suzie? Does he have feelings for her? I know they share some sort of past together, maybe that's why Suzie acted like that and maybe that's why Isaac's response was so mellowed down. He could easily get angry at me but not at her dear Suzie!

I tugged at my own hair in frustration. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I care if he likes Suzie?! I try to shake my head out of these thoughts but it seemed impossible. I can't stop comparing how he treats Suzie in comparison to me. I have to deal with the angry and moody Isaac while Suzie gets away with saying hurtful words to me? From what I saw earlier, Isaac didn't seem to be angry at her. Heck, he even wanted me to be understanding towards the fucking situation without even knowing how hurt I was.

I try to rid my mind from thinking about Isaac's behaviour towards me in comparison to Suzie. She's his friend while I'm someone who was forced onto him by his father, these comparisons don't make any sense. Suzie will always be Isaac's friend while I'm just his 'unwanted wife' and I guess I'm fine with it, five more months then I'll be free.

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It's been an entire week since Isaac left my room in anger and it seems like we've fallen back to our old pattern of avoiding each other. I stay in my room and he stays in his, we barely run into each other and whenever we do, he's the first one to look away from me. It was foolish of me to think that we can be friends for the remainder of our marriage, Isaac and his temper can never change.

I was going through a manuscript when someone knocked on my door, I know it's Isaac, I know how he knocks on the door and it's silly. I stood up and went to open the door, I don't keep it open anymore because I've started prioritizing myself: I need space, I need privacy.

"Why was the door locked?" was the first question that flew out of Isaac's mouth and I rolled my eyes at him. Typical Isaac behaviour.

"Privacy" I answered glaring at him and to my surprise, he didn't say anything back to me.

"We need to talk" he said walking inside my room and making himself comfortable on the bed.

"Remember what happened the last time you tried to talk with me?" I asked in amusement "I'm in no mood to argue today, I have a lot of work pending" I added and saw his gaze land on the still open laptop that was on the desk.

"This won't take long and I'm not here to argue with you, I came to apologise for what happened between us last week" his words sounded sincere but I was shocked all the same.

"What?" I asked in disbelief, crossing my arms over my chest.

"You heard me, I'm sorry for lashing out on you... I shouldn't have done that" he said looking a bit flustered.

"This is a first from you" I remarked, I still wasn't sure if I wanted to forgive him for acting like a total jerk.

"Amber please don't make this difficult for me" he said running a hand through his hair, a definite sign his of frustration.

"I'm not a patient man, you can say I have anger issues and when I saw you acting so stubborn and being hooked on what Suzie told you, I kind of lost it" he admitted.

"So your explanation is that you're not a patient man therefore, you lashed out at me but I'm somehow expected to be patient towards you and that friend of yours? Am I not allowed to be angry Isaac?" I asked him in all seriousness, if he thinks he can always get away with hurting me then he's wrong!

"Of course not... I admit I was being unreasonable and I'm sorry. I lost my cool and said some stupid stuff, and it was wrong because if I can't keep myself composed, how on earth should I expect others to always have it together?! I'm really sorry for that day Amber, please forgive me" he pleaded and this time I went and sat beside him.

"It's okay" I finally said with a sigh and the smile that broke out on his face was priceless, the way his eyes were shining made my heart flutter.

"And I'm sorry too, you were only trying to understand the situation and why I was acting the way I did, and maybe I was being a little stubborn" I added and he raised an eyebrow at me.

"A little stubborn?" he questioned and I chuckled at his cheeky behaviour.

"Okay, a lot! Happy now?" I'm sure my voice sounded like that of a schoolgirl who's getting to talk to her crush for the first time.

"Whatever it is, I hope you never have to relive your past again. I'm sorry about Suzie but you need to know that you're not boring, I can talk to you all day, forever" his eyes went wide at what he just admitted and so did mine.

Forever?

I shook the thought of my head and tried to divert the conversation towards something else.

"Isaac... I, I was bullied in high school" I admitted. God, I can't believe I'm about tell him about what happened in high school!