Genshin x (Youkai) Reader Hurt & Angst/Comfort and Fluff

(TW: Death, Su1c1de) Albedo x Dead Reader, Albedo Visits Your Grave

Welcome to the longest chapter I have written so far. Enjoy!

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One week since the death of the Traveler.

Albedo sat with his legs folded to the side, staring blankly at the letters on the gravestone.

The ones that spelled out your name.

Underneath it was a list of titles that had been given to you thanks to your good deeds across Teyvat. It ended with a simple Rest In Peace. You were buried on top of a hill with golden trees and grass, a berry bush sprouting halfway down the slope. Albedo had picked this location specifically- it was beautiful at all times of the day, and far enough away from any settlements that no one would hear him talking to you when he came to visit.

Exhaling heavily, he ran one hand over the grass. "Hello, darling. How have you been? I hope it's been comfortable." The silence that hung behind his words was nearly enough to make him start crying on its own. 

"You know, the other nations' leaders kept debating where you should be laid to rest. It was quite a sight, seeing the Dendro Archon so emotional." A small, humorless smile appeared on his lips. "I guess no one has been doing well since... since you left. I know you would say I'm being selfish, but," Albedo gazed up at the stars, "I feel like how everyone else is feeling right now.. I'm feeling ten times the pain."

He sniffed. "This... hurts me, love. To know that you were in pain, and I couldn't help you. No experiment that I tried worked, no potion that I crafted helped, no medicine that I bought could ease your suffering. I couldn't even get to you in time when it mattered the most."

Albedo shook his head slightly. His vision was becoming watery. "Every day drags on agonizingly slowly. Every night is cold and lonely without you." When the first tear fell, he did not try to stop it.

"It makes me wonder, did you truly know how many people loved you? How many people still love you?" More tears joined it.

"I still love you! I still do, darling. And I miss you more than anything- gods, I would do anything just to hear your voice again. To see your smile, to look into your eyes. To hold you close when you were sleeping, knowing that my heart was right there, in my embrace. If only I could've done more for you. Oh, my love. Sometimes I wonder if you believed me when I told you I loved you."

Albedo's tone became slightly bitter. "Because if you believed me all the times I told you that I loved you more than life itself, would you still have left? Would you still have left me in this world, while you went somewhere I could not follow? Neither of us can die of old age or the effects of time on our bodies. So why..? Why would you choose to end it yourself?"

He took a short pause, as if he was hoping you would answer.

"Sometimes, as much as I hate to admit it, I've been angry. Angry that you left. Angry that I couldn't help you. Angry that for all the times you told me how you were feeling, I didn't do more. And yet," he paused to wipe his face with the back of his hand, "as frustrated as I am, I'm a thousand times more sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like a burden or a nuisance or an obstacle; you're none of those things. I'm sorry I missed the signs. I'm sorry I couldn't get there in time. And, my darling.."

Albedo's voice broke as a fresh wave of tears rolled down his face. "I'm so, so sorry that you had to spend your last moments alone. Even if I was too late- even if I couldn't have saved you- 

"I wasn't there to hold your hand. I wasn't by your side, telling you how much I loved you one last time. And now I fear.. I fear that you don't know how much you mean to me." Albedo sobbed.