Captivated Desires

15

"Whatever Reign," I turned over.

He looked at the back of my head "I know I forgot the appointment and upset you and I said I was sorry, don't have an attitude with me," he mumbled, his tone sounding firm and authoritative.

He sat up in bed slightly, looking at the back of my head and continuing to speak. "No 'whatever' or 'whatever Reign.' I said I was sorry, okay?" he mumbled, the firmness and authority in his tone increasing in his irritation.

"Can you shut up? I just want to sleep it has been a damn long day," I replied firmly.

Reign looked at me as I spoke to him, his irritation and annoyance increasing. He was getting more irritated and annoyed by the second, especially with how I was talking to him. "I am not going to shut up, don't tell me to shut up. And I am well aware that it's been a long day and that you're tired, but don't take your anger out on me," he mumbled, keeping a firm and authoritative tone.

I sat up "Oh really? I told you twice about the appointment. It is not my fault that you forgot," I glared at him.

Reign sat up fully as well, looking at me directly as I spoke and kept his gaze on me. "And I told you I was sorry. I know it's not your fault that I forgot, but why are you still talking to me like that? I said I was sorry, I said it wasn't intentional and you're still talking to me like that! It's not like I did it on purpose." His voice rose slightly, the irritation and annoyance more prevalent in his tone.

"Because I have Bipolar," I blurted out.

Reign's expression changed as he heard me blurt out the word 'bipolar'. He looked at me and the irritation and annoyance in his tone disappeared and was replaced with a look of concern and shock. He looked at me seriously and spoke, his tone now sounding a lot softer. "Wait, you have bipolar?" he mumbled, wanting to confirm he heard me correctly.

He couldn't believe he never knew this information or that I had never told him this before. He had known me for years and had married me, yet he had never known I had this disorder until this moment. He looked at me with a concerned look in his eyes as he spoke again. "Why didn't you ever tell me?" he mumbled, a hint of confusion in his tone.

"I didn't want to,".

Reign looked at me with a mixture of shock and surprise, he couldn't believe I had kept something like this hidden from him. "You didn't want to tell me that you have bipolar?" he mumbled, still processing this new information I just revealed to him.

He sat still for a moment, taking a moment to let this new information sink in. He couldn't believe I had been hiding this from him for so long, and as he thought about it he realized that the way I had been acting recently and my mood swings made a lot more sense now that he knew I had this disorder. But he was still hurt that I had kept something like this from him for so long.

Reign watched me put my hands over my face and he could see the emotion and stress in my expression as I did this. He wanted to comfort me but his own emotions were confused and he didn't know what to say at this moment.

He looked at me for a moment before he finally spoke up. "Why didn't you tell me before now that you have bipolar?" he mumbled a hint of sadness in his tone.

"Because... I thought you were going to leave me,".

As he heard my words, his heart lurched in his chest. He could see the sadness and vulnerability in my expression as I admitted my fear to him, and his heart ached for me. He moved closer to me on the bed and spoke. "Why would you ever think that?" he mumbled, concern in his tone.

"Because of the mental health,".

Reign moved even closer to me on the bed, his concern and worry increasing as he saw the sadness in my eyes and heard my words. He spoke again, keeping his voice gentle and softened. "Darling, you think I would really leave you because of that?" he mumbled, his eyes fixed on me.

"Don't say it like that... It sounds like I betrayed you in something,".

Reign looked at me immediately, his eyes widening slightly at my words. "No, that's not what I meant. Darling, I don't feel betrayed by you. I'm shocked and a little hurt that you didn't feel you could trust me with something like this, especially after we've been together for so long." he mumbled, his tone gentle but still expressing a hint of sadness and hurt.

"Why are you bringing up trust? It was my choice to keep it a secret, it was my mental health Reign,".

Reign looked at me seriously as I spoke, his eyes fixed on me intently. "I'm bringing up trust because I'm your husband. I've been with you for years, and I married you because I love you. If something is affecting you or your mental health, I want to know about it so I can help and support you through it. It hurts that you didn't trust me enough to tell me about this before now." he mumbled with a hint of hurt in his tone.

He continued to speak, his tone still gentle and softened, but there was a hint of hurt and sadness still present. "I understand that it is your mental health and your choice to keep it a secret, but you are my wife, and I love you, and I want to help and support you through it. I want to be there for you when you need me, and I want you to feel like you can talk to me about anything, especially something like this."