My Big Man Baby

Ohm

I was getting ready for work when my mom told me that Gawin was already outside waiting. I flew down, saying goodbye to everyone, and met him outside.

"Hey, ready?" He asked me, his soft voice ringing out as usual. I nodded, fastening my watch on. But Gawin turned back to me and stopped me for a bit as he adjusted my collar. I looked up at him, and he smiled.

"I know you are excited for work, but you need to watch your outfit too. The collar was all crumpled."

I smiled, my eyes twinkling as I nodded at him earnestly. Gawin sighed before pinching my cheeks.

"You are so cute. You could get away with looking messy." I nodded even more fervently, smiling at him. Gawin just smiled at me. We took an Uber to work together, just chatting about our plans.

Once we got to work, everyone was stoked to see me and crowded around me! It was really heartening to see the support and love, but I had lost Gawin in the crowd. Just then, Nanon came by, too, with a bouquet of flowers for me. Since our falling out, it's the first time he has acknowledged me in public. I didn't really care too much for Nanon as I was still trying to find Gawin.

Just as Gawin came closer and I smiled at him, I heard a soft familiar voice ring out. I turned, and Nanon smiled at me, handing me the flowers. That sparked another round of screams and excitement and as my left hand reached out to Gawin amidst the crowd, the people around just pushed him away and he drifted further from me as I was pushed to Nanon.

The cameras clicked as I fell into Nanon's arms, and he held onto me gently, smiling.

But my view was just arrested by Gawin, who just smiled at me sadly from amidst the crowd and left. I hated this. I hated people always sidelining him just cause he wasn't as popular or in demand. By the time the crowd cleared and I went to look for Gawin, he had long left.

I texted him, but there was no reply. I knew he must be in some sort of filming, so I went to take a look at the schedule online and realized he had no work for today. He had deliberately woken up to just send me to work, and that too got derailed without him being able to spend time with me before my shoot.

My heart just went out to him, and I couldn't deny that he was on my mind. The entire time, I was filming this jewellery ad.

The entire fucking time.