Hanni
I walked ahead of Minji, not wanting to really force her to speak. If she's going to amend this, she will at her own pace. But I don't think I'll have my ears open for her that long, and she knows it.
"Hanni." I stopped walking and Minji stood a couple of feet behind me. "Why didn't you tell me the importance of your relationship with her? I wouldn't have thought any less of you." I whispered but I knew Minji heard.
"Hanni, I didn't want you to think I was a fool." She said and I turned to look at her with a scoff. "Am I even your first love?" I asked as I turned around and Minji froze and I wanted to cry in that exact moment. She shouldn't have hesitated.
Everything was going so well, and now look at us.
"You should've told me, Minji. I would've wanted you to tell me that she was important, I didn't want to find out through your parents." I said and Minji took a step closer to me.
"I swear she means nothing." She said and I let out a scoff. "You didn't even eat the rest of your food." I said and Minji looked away.
I turned back around ready to walk away when I felt a hand wrap around my wrist. I was suddenly pulled back around, my hands steadying themselves on her chest.
"Hanni, you are my first love, you have to believe me. I love you so much. But you have to listen to me, put your anger aside for a moment and just have some type of mercy on me for a minute." She said, holding my face with her hand as her eyes sparkled.
And I melted, how couldn't I? It's Minji.
"Speak." I said as I tried to pull away but Minji only shook her head at me. "Gaeul was manipulating, like very. But at the time she was all I knew. So I made my mistakes because of her. I didn't love her, but you can say I liked her enough to do anything she asked me to do." And a part of me didn't like hearing that.
"I let myself be controlled by her, I wasn't a good person because of her. And it truly made me an idiot. I suffered a lot with her in general, my parents just seemed to believe it was because she broke up with me. But it wasn't that, it was the mental abuse she had put me through that had me crying that day." I looked at her with wide eyes.
"I didn't know how to feel once I was free from her. I didn't know if I should've been happy or just sad." She said, and that sentence did a little something to my heart.
"I was at a bad state after her and I even promised to her that I wouldn't be with anyone else. I just felt so vulnerable without her. And I thought I was doing the right thing, but I wasn't. She used me for those two months that we were together and it made me fear for who would come later in to my life." She let out a sigh as she pulled me closer and inhaled my scent.
"That was all before I bumped in to you that day in the hallway. I was struck by your beauty the moment my eyes landed on you. And you can ask Haerin about this, but you were all that I was able to talk about for the rest of the day." I looked up at her as her eyes looked at me with nothing other than love.
"And then at the party, when you were dancing. You captivated me. And I was scared, because I didn't want to be hurt that same way once more, but I couldn't do anything about it. I was already falling for you. I lied about Gaeul because I didn't want you to try and change anything about yourself." She said.
"You're perfect the way you already are, Hanni. And I never wanted you to think before you act for the rest of our life's. I wanted you to always be free and act like the Hanni I met. I tried telling you a couple of times but I couldn't, I know you, Hanni." She said, leaning down to press a kiss against my cheek.
"You would've started to analyze every little thing you did, because you wouldn't want to be like her. You wouldn't want me to be reminded of her in any way. That's what I didn't want, it wasn't going to be good for you." She said as she placed her forehead against my own.
"She broke me, but you fixed me, Hanni. Never, ever think that she will ever truly mean something to me. You're my world, the air I breathe, the light of my life, and the reason I live for." She said, her hands going down to my waist.
"Look at me. I'll never be anything without you. No woman can or will ever be able to match you. There's no competition, nor anyone before. It's just you. And please forgive me for not telling you. It was my mistake but I promise to never do it again." She said, brushing our noses together and I just couldn't help it.
I tippy toed and pressed my lips against her own. Hearing all of this made me sad, how could that woman do such thing? Minji has to be the one person I know that has the purest heart. She didn't deserve to be treated like that by her.
A part of me even dared to wonder how bad the manipulation was. I wasn't mad at Minji, I never was. But all of this calmed me. I knew that backstory and that would also let me know of what to do if she ever sees her again.
"You're my true love, Hanni. You're the woman I want to marry one day. I know we're too early on to be thinking of that but I can't help it. You're what I see in my future. And I want us to be together forever." She said once we pulled away from the kiss.
There was a smile on her face despite of everything she just said. She's so bright, and positive when she needed to be. But sometimes it just masked everything that she truly felt.
"I'm sorry that she did all of that to you, baby. And I definitely don't want to be like her but I do know that I'm better. I see my future with you and no one else, you're my forever. But you have to be honest with me, with everything. So that we could truly be together forever. Some secrets aren't good to keep. And you also have to trust me." I said and Minji gave me a nod.
"I know. I'll never keep anything from you ever again. I'll be honest about anything and I already trust you, more than you can imagine. I made a mistake and that's on me. I just thank you for staying with me and not getting mad at me for being stupid." She said.
I leaned my head on her chest and took in her scent. "I won't be going anywhere. I love you too much to ever let you go." I said and she placed her chin at the top of my head. Her arms wrapping around me so tight, bringing me comfort.
"I love you too, to the universe and back. And I don't think I'll ever be able to let go of you either. You're under my grasp forever." She said and I wouldn't want it any other way. I want her to hold me until our last breaths.
It's just me and Minji.
It will always be, and I'm sure of it.
Nothing will ever separate me from Minji.
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....oh Hanni.
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