Hanni
I stood there watching as Minji came to me with her formal clothes and a bouquet of white roses in her hands. "You look wonderful, my love." Minji said as she brought me in to a hug.
I could feel my mom watching me from the second floor but I didn't care. I was going to enjoy our date tonight. My mom can go drink tea with her friends and stay out of it.
"I could say the same for you, baby." I said as I extended my arms and Minji quickly wrapped her arms around me and brought me in to a hug. The roses tickling my back.
"I know I'm not taking you to prom, but with some earned money, I'm going to take you out on a luxurious date, will you join me?" She asked once she pulled away from me and I couldn't help but let my heart melt.
"We could've gone down to the fast food restaurant at the corner and I still would've joined you." I said as she handed me the bouquet in which I gladly took. Minji smiled at me and I could only smile back.
Minji helped me in to her car, leaning down to place a kiss on my cheek as she poked my side to get a giggle out of me. I slapped Minji's thigh as payback and I couldn't help but laugh at her expression as she closed the door.
Moments like this is what kept me so sure of my relationship with Minji, despite of everything that has been happening. When we're all alone together, the world and our problems disappear.
It's our own little cloud, up high in the sky.
Where no one will ever be able to reach, it's just me and Minji in our own little bubble with dreams and wants. Just me and her.
"You look so beautiful in that dress." Minji said as she started the car and gave me a flirty smile and I couldn't help but blush a little. Minji was so hot sometimes. All times.
She joked the whole car ride, making me forget about the whole Gaeul situation and how that woman has gotten a lot worse, she's all over Minji now and I can't fucking take that anymore. Minji pushes her away and it only seems t fuel her to keep trying.
I'm trying my best to keep calm but that woman has meddled with my last nerve. Minji tries to calm me every time I want to make her face meet the ground. It's where she belongs.
And at times I feel like she's winning, but it's only because my parents are here to make everything worse, my mom keeps threatening me about Minji and I just want to cover her mouth with tape so that I don't listen to her voice.
Minji has attempted multiple times to get to meet them in a proper manner but my mom only pushes her away and calls her names and I don't think I can handle that much more. I've told Minji to stop trying but she's set on making it right.
And it just melts me, but breaks me. They'll never want her as their in-law. Everything just keeps adding up and I don't even know if we'll ever be able to make it out of this.
Minji had taken us to beautiful restaurant near the beach, we had our fun and own little adventure when it came to trying new food. And I don't think I've ever eaten the way I did with Minji tonight. I had the time of my life with her.
Minji just makes me so happy and I'd be so sad if I ever have to let her go for both our sanity's. I prefer to hold her as it hurts, then to be unharmed while letting her go.
It's wrong and it would be the clear reason to let go, I just don't know what to do. I love her, I really do. But I don't think I can put her through any more of this nonsense going on.
It's all because of me.
"You know, I'd like to give you a penny for your thoughts, they seem valuable." Minji said as we held hands, walking through the beach. Our feet in the sand and our shoes in our hands.
"It's nothing." I said, looking up at the beautiful moon that shined above us. If only it could always be this peaceful. "Hanni, I know you better than Danielle does. Just don't tell her I said that, she'll probably hang me." Minji said and I couldn't help but laugh a little.
"I just—I don't know. Everything that's happening has been making it so difficult to breathe and just be ourselves. Gaeul has entered both our lives and just has been ruining everything." I said, stopping as I turned to look at Minji.
"She's consuming my being with everything she says. I trust you, and I know that you're mine but I just can't. I want to hit her, slap her, punch her, maybe even murder her. I just can't with all of this. And then my parents are on that same side as they're trying to push me away from you. This is all so much for me." I said as I had tears falling.
Minji had tears in her own eyes as she pulled me to her and brought me in to her arms that were so comforting and warm. I wanted to stay here forever.
"I love you so much, Minji. I really do and I'd feel like I gave up on us if I decide to let go. And I also can't. I can't let you go, Minji. I'm nothing without you." I said and Minji held me tight as my ear picked up on her heart beat. And it only made me sob even more.
"I don't even know if I should keep asking you to hold on. But I know I am, just try for a little bit longer. We're about to make it out of here." Minji said. "But if you have to let go, do it. I love you, Hanni. I can't watch you be in pain. To see your heart aching all the time. I want you to be happy, even if it's not by my side." She said and it only made me sob even more.
Why was she so perfect? I'd be so stupid to let her go. But what if I run out of strength and let her go against my own will? I can't even imagine it.
"If you really have to for your own sake, do it. I wouldn't even blame you. It's for your own good, Hanni. I dragged you down when it came to Gaeul. And I'm so fucking sorry about that, if only I could do something to keep her away, or something that I could do better." She said, but I knew there was no keeping that snake away from us.
"It's not your fault. None of this is either one's fault. It's just life and there nothing we could do about it. Maybe we're meant to be, or maybe we're not. That's for life to decide." I said and Minji gave me a hum of agreement and in that moment I felt that we've reached that point where a break up wouldn't even be a surprise to neither of us.
I don't want to reach that point, I can't give up on Minji. Not yet. But this was the closure we both needed in one way or another.
And now it all depends on how much more we could handle.
If I can't, I'd see myself forced to let Minji go.
And she'd be forced to let me go.
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I'm running away...
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