So High School (Chris Evans) 18+

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As much as it's been quite lonely at Chris's place, I'd feel like I was intruding by calling Lisa when I'm feeling isolated, which I very much am currently. Don't get me wrong, I love this place - but I just wish that he'd been here when I'd arrived. He's back in three days and they can't come quick enough. Just last night I'd caved and ventured into his room to sleep in his bed, just to feel something of him. 

I started work last week, so that's been keeping me busy - but coming home of an evening is the worst. I guess I'll have to get used to it as he's going to be back and forth. I've only really visited when he's been home on a break. 

The good thing is that I've made a couple of friends and have actually been out for drinks with them. I don't feel like the new girl as much as I did last week. They're pretty nice, two of them called Ali and Ellie. We've been put on a design project together so it's been nice to get to know them that way. I had question after question the other evening and the one that threw me was obviously about my relationship status. 

"So, you got a guy over here?" Ali asked, sipping on her Margarita. 

"I...well, yes and no. It's a little complicated at the moment". I replied, because let's face it. It is. We're not together but we kind of are - that's how we're rolling at the moment. No way was I even going to mention about Chris anyway. 

Ellie grinned. "I know the feeling. Currently got a friends with benefits situation going on and I said I wouldn't fall back into it but I have". 

"Because she's an idiot". Ali put in tactfully. "Anyway, what's he like? The guy you're complicated with?"

I looked into my drink. "He's...well it's funny because he was my cousin's next door neighbour, so we met when we were teenagers, lost contact and then got back in contact last year after we both went to her wedding. It's was up and down, I had a fiance back home so that didn't help". 

"Yikes! Guessing it didn't end well?" I fell quiet and grew uncomfortable, thankfully Ali sensed this and gestured for another round to be brought to us. "Sorry..." Ellie apologised. 

I brushed it off. "It's ok, it...it's just not something I like to think about. I've not really felt free of him until I got here last week. I'll tell you guys about it one day, but at the moment I'm still working on getting myself back together". 

"So where you living now?" Ali changed the subject. 

"Concord, my aunt and uncle live in Sudbury so I kinda know that area better if I'm honest". 

Ellie nodded her approval. "Very niiiiice

Now as I pour myself a glass of wine and sit at the counter in the kitchen, I know I'm gonna have to get an early night just so that the day can be over and that I won't feel upset missing Chris. 

Then it'll only be two more days...

I feel a sense of comfort sinking into his bed, and drift off with the hope that maybe I'll accidently sleep for the next couple of days. 

**

I'm roused as I feel the bed go down and then a kiss gently sink onto my neck. "Hey sweetheart..." He whispers as I roll over to make sure it's actually Chris and not a burglar looking to take a nap. 

"You said you wouldn't be here for another couple of days?" I say sleepily as he pulls my body into his. 

"Mmm. I wrapped early, which was beneficial for me". He replies, "And even more beneficial to find that you are actually in my bed". 

I keep close to him, not letting go. "Only the last couple of days. I've not been feeling great, missing you and stuff. So I just wanted to feel close to you". 

"Well now you can be as much as you want". He says and keeps me pressed against him and kissing my hair. "It's nice to come back and have you here". 

"When do you leave again?" I ask. 

"Trying to get rid of me that quick?" 

"No, just gearing myself up for missing you again". I admit, feeling his hand rub gently up and down the length of my spine. 

I can tell in his voice he's exhausted, so I don't want to ask him much more as he probably needs as much sleep as I do. "Got a couple of appearances and events dotted here and there. I'll let you know when they are though. How bad have felt? In what way?"

"We can talk about it tomorrow". I tell him. "But I've just felt lonely and uneasy being by myself. I didn't want to intrude on your mother so I've kind of just kept to the house after coming back from work". 

"And how's that going?" 

"I've made friends. It's not as bad as freelance work was so I'm happy for that at least". 

He shifts to get us more comfortable. "Good. I was worried about you".

"You said we needed to talk, when did you want to?" 

"When we're refreshed tomorrow. Like I said, it's nothing bad. Just good". 

I laugh tiredly. "You're not giving anything away then?" 

"Well it's about us. About moving forward and how - although I'm not sure that..." He trails off. "Don't worry, we can talk tomorrow". 

"Chris". I sit up and turn on the lamp, seeing him now squinting to adjust his eyes to the light. "You can't say that and expect me to sleep on it". 

He nods. "You're right, it's not fair on you", and now he sits up. "I've been thinking a lot. Right back from the wedding when I saw you again, and even more so since this shit with Daniel. You're finally here and free of him, but I wanna make sure you're fully free because I care a hell of a lot about you, more than care..." He stops, gets a little apprehensive but continues. "I just...I don't wanna scare you off". 

"Tell me". 

"Tam I love you, and I know that you're probably gonna say no which is fine with me, but...I wanna marry you..." 

Ok. Now I'm fully awake.