Let the church say Amen.

9.

Kierra Valencia Sheard:

"It hurts that I can't kiss you" I say to her as we stood outside the airport.

People were coming in and out, others filled outside and all I wanted to do was kiss her after she hugged me goodbye.

"Why are you crying Ki?" She asks me pulling away looking at my face.

Honestly I don't know, I understand that she has to go but I didn't want her to.

"I don't want you to go" I say pouting, and she chuckles lowly.

Find humor in my pain Erica.

"This is the reason why you're not accompanying me inside , you're going to make me change my mind" she says to me,

We were trying really hard not to show too much affection to each other since it was public, but she held my face gently a little then pulled back.

"I understand you have to go Mo , you're a mother after all... maybe I'll come visit you instead real soon." I say to her and she lightens up,

"Yes, yes definitely that" she says in a chuckle causing me to smile.

I love her so much, her beauty can't be described both in and out, she's firm and confident in herself and she walks and carried that with her.

"I love you Mo' " I tell her, Erica smiles and gives me one last tight hug.

"I love you too Kierra" she tells me, and tears fall from my eyes again...

Maybe I'm entering my time of the month, I can't be this damn emotional over someone I can get to see or call and talk to.

"Okay get out of here, you gonna miss your flight." I say to her pushing her out of her tight embrace.

"Okay, okay... I love you bye " she says in a hurry.... she picks up her carry-on bag and she waves at me with her smile that can brighten the whole world up.

I wave back at her also, and I watch her enter the huge building... I look at her through the windows and I smile, damn... I'm really in love.

I just came back from dropping Erica off at the airport, she spent the whole day with me and my mom because my mom was going through some stuff and I also wanted to be there for her.

I'm not gonna lie, I was still mad at my mother but seeing that she chose me over the man that she loved like no other really showed me just how sorry and how important I was in her life. I'm not saying I've fully forgiven her because it still hurts... but she's my mom, and atleast she's trying.

My dad is evil for making her choose, I don't know if this will result in them divorcing... I hope not, I hope he comes to his senses because my mom doesn't deserve this for loving me.

She was sad, broken and I could tell she was... not only was she sacrificing her marriage, she was also going against what she has believed in all her life and I could see that the transition wasn't easy... it isn't going to be.

My mom spent the whole morning in my bed yesterday , and I spent it with Erica, I was thankful that my mom was there because if she wasn't Lord knows we would've done shit we weren't supposed to be doing.

I would've had that girl's legs on my shoulders with face deep inside that pus- Lord.

Okay, so we talked a lot about where we would go with our relationship, we both agreed that we were not going to have sex- which I hope we both will hold each other accountable for.

She promised to be there for me as I go through this process and I can't believe I'm about to say this but yes, I somehow agreed to be her side just until she figures out how to sort the mess with her marriage.