Let the church say Amen.

10.

2016.

Kierra Valencia Sheard:

I had just finished performing, getting off stage I was sweating and tired because when I tell you when I'm on that stage baby I put all my energy out so the people can receive it.

I went back to the changing room where all my stuff was so, thank God I didn't have to do the meet and greetings since it wasn't just me performing.

My team followed behind me and I got in so I can immediately take these shoes off Lord.

I took out my phone and my baby sent me multiple texts of encouragement and I didn't see them before I got on stage, she's so sweet but I was starting to feel some type of way when it came to our relationship.

Erica and I have been keeping things on the low for about a year, we hardly saw each other because of our busy schedule... she was booked and when she wasn't she was on mommy duties and I too was booked.

It was as if our schedules clashed and we couldn't make time to see each other, and what irritated me more was the fact that she didn't seem like she wanted to change the situation with her husband... it didn't seem to be going nowhere and I hated that because I wanted her all to myself. I felt like I was settling.

It felt like we were kids, playing around with no growth... granted the love was there and I could feel it, I felt it everytime we talked or the times we were together but it wasn't enough. I craved for more.

   as I sat there replying to E's messages there was a knock at the door and Sam gets up to check on who it is.

"Heyyy" I hear Sam say loudly and my ears peck as I look towards the door.

She continues to hug someone... then after she lets her in.

"Hey everybody" Koryn greets entering the room and I am struck not knowing what to say.

The rest of my team greets her back and she looks at me with a high spirit saying my name.

"Hey... hey Koryn" I say , and I get up to hug her so I don't make anything weird...

Dang, she smells amazing.

"What you doing here?" I ask her getting back and fixing my shirt.

"You're in my city Kierra... of course I was gonna come see you" she tells me and I chuckle.

"Oh thank you, you're so sweet" I say to her, but deep down I don't know... I think I was kind of mad at her.

She disappeared again after that incident with my mom and I haven't heard from her since... it was just like this when we were kids, when she moved she never came back and she left me stranded.

I feel as though deep down I always waited for her.

Shamika, Koryn and I started having conversations about school reminiscing on the crazy times where were young and free.

It was good reminiscing with them.

"Koryn now why did you like doing that Jeesus!" Shamika yelled at her laughing

"I didn't like it I just didn't see it as a problem" Koryn says laughing

"You knew it was a problem Koryn, cause you stank God" I say dramatically and they laughed.

We were trolling Koryn on how nasty she would get after her practice then would come up to us and try to touch and hug us...

Even if maybe they both weren't each other's biggest fans because Koryn was shy and Shamika was just herself all the time, we made it work back then.