Erica Monique Campbell:
Kierra and I sat in her living room watching a movie once again, we cooked lunch together before this...
I brought along with me some ingredients and I enjoyed being in the kitchen with her even though she was acting like a 10 year old, she complained about me fussing at her which I wasn't.
The bags I had brought had popcorn, chocolate, cookies , ice cream... just sweets and treats along with the ingredients of the food we had cooked.
This was my attempt to cheer her up because of how she was crying last night... all I wanted was to be with her, and I even agreed to watch Friday with her since she wanted to last time and I said no.
We sat on the floor of her living room watching it, and I could tell Kierra liked the movie.
"So, Ki... you want to tell me what happened?" I ask her getting us out of the attention from the movie and snacks we ate.
The things I do for the people I care about, I knew I was going to gain a lot of pounds from all this.
"It's... it's really difficult ." She says to me,
I take the remote , and I pause the movie so I can have all her attention.
"Talk to me" I say to her.
"It's the whole homosexuality being a sin issue, my mom tricked me yesterday to go to the house and when I got there I found my dad with the elders and they held an exorcism prayer for me." Kierra says to me.
"What?" I ask, I really shocked to hear that,
It's 2013 for crying out loud, I didn't know COGIC pastors did that... heck, I didn't even think churches still do those.
She simply nodded telling me that what she just said was true. "COGIC does those?" I ask her , and Kierra simply shakes her head no...
"I think because it's me, my dad wanted to take things further, he wants me to be saved so bad and I can't help but have a fear you know..." She says to me, and I nod in understanding.
I understand what she meant, I was also attracted to a woman as a Christian woman.
"Black parents would rather have a child that is a murderer or a gang dealer than gay" I say to her.
"The term 'a sin is a sin no exemptions' is stuck in my head Mo... I don't know what I need to do" she says to me,
I could tell she has been really struggling with this, and I wished I could take the hurt away from her...
"Then we'll just have to believe that it's not " I say to her, she looks at me with her face scrunched.
"What do you mean?" She asks me,
I move my feet and I sit up close to her, I hold her hands and then I look into her eyes.
"Listen Ki, I don't know also... I'm just as lost as you are on the topic because it's what we've known ever since we got on Earth... what do you want to hear? The Christian Erica or the bad ass Erica?" I ask and she laughed at me.
"I didn't know you cuss Monique" she chastised playfully.
I don't know , all I wanna do is see this girl smiling, laughing like this.... that can't be all sin no way.
"It's your fault for making me watch these movies" I say to her jokingly and she rolls her eyes at me.
"Give me the wise Erica" she says to me, and I smirk.
"Okay... wise Erica" I say to her.
"I don't think it's a sin for me it's just as harmful theology, I know the Bible says it is but I don't think it should be and I'm sticking with that" I say to her in an amused tone and she chuckles.
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Let the church say Amen.
FanfictionKierra is a closeted gospel singer who struggles with coming to terms about her sexuality and the beliefs that the church preaches about on Sundays.