You've ruined me;

the irony of a happy person in a tragic relationship

you never loved me
and it shows

as my friend tells me about the time she saw your face hugging me

you never meant
when you said
"i love you, i want you, i need you in my life"

when you said you loved my clothes
you meant it with my body in mind

you wanted the fact that i pleased your alright's
your oks surrounded with peace in mind

and you said you loved me
and it never showed
you won't approach me
and you just kept going

cus my friend, sophia
saw your face when hugging me
your face full of anger and disbelief
because you hated giving me everything i wanted

everything i wanted
it was just a hug and smile and a laugh at all my jokes
but instead you walked away and sat in the back of our classroom

and i put my head down because you said it made me look miserable
i didn't maintain eye contact because it made me look abused

and honestly now it hurts to see you
because i loved you
and i still do

because i loved you
and i thought you did too

you said that i caused a scene
but you made a scene out of me
everyone wasn't watching you
they were watching me

they stood silent as they saw your twisted face
you hated me
ever since you dated me

because once i gave you everything that you wanted
you turned around with your hands in your pockets
you used me, ridiculed me, took my womanhood
then left me, and said we were gonna be friends

and when we were friends, you told me i was a bitch
you only respected me just so you could hit
you left me here, lying in a ditch

and it's all gone now and thrown away
it's been two months and i'm not okay