You've ruined me;

to my ex best friend

i never thought this would happen before,
telling you, "i don't love you anymore"
you gave me roses
and pricked me with the thorns
and i thought it was normal

i showed you my true self
you showed me how to get help
but now my life is crumbling at your feet
so i'll take my leave

i couldn't care less what you're doing now
as long as you aren't
going out and killing yourself
but when you said that
i never gave a fuck about you
please know that it's not fucking true

and i hate your city
it reminds me of the month long christmas
everyday texting your phone,
when you were in the hospital
you said you slit your wrists
for a guy in 9th grade
i was so fucking worried
and i thought maybe
you were buried in a 6 foot grave
and i was bawling my eyes out that month
i can't believe you relapsed that much.