You've ruined me;

to the person who made me grow up fast

i found you at your worst
and i fixed your broken heart

you found me when i knew nothing
and you taught me everything i know

all your jokes were just insults
and it hurt me a lot
but you taught me it's normal
so that's all i really know

all my relationships i've been in ended fucked up
so next time, you warned me not to come so close to them
but when i said it was ok, you said it was not
you manipulated me and i cannot forgive you for that

you told me to cheat on every man i talked to
when i finally listened
and blamed you, "it's all your fault"
you sent my boyfriend death threats
and then led me on
and i hate that you gaslighted me for that

you got mad
when i made fun of you for dating old men
i can't believe i told my boyfriend
he got mad
telling me, "pedophiles are monsters"
and i can't believe i normalized these

authors note: so this one is about my ex bsf influencing all her toxic traits on me (i basically grew up with tough love alone, normalizing a lot of fucked up shit like calling your best friends slut and whore) and i was in a toxic relationship myself with this guy who told me i was normalizing pedophilia bc my ex bsf kept dating men around 30 (she's a minor) and she was genuinely in love with them which is sick and i couldn't make her leave them bc she'd one gaslight/manipulate me and she was long distance like 🤷‍♀️
anyways thanks for listening to me rant 💋💋