Not Enough (taekook)

17.

"What?!?" screamed Kim Seokjin when his little brother decided to drop a whole ass bomb on him and told him that he has a boyfriend. Who is Jeongguk by the way.

Taehyung just smiled shyly and giggled. He couldn't wait to tell his brother and his friends about his, now official, relationship. He was over the moon, saw everything through pink fog and wanted to smile all the time. This was his very first relationship, the first time he got so intimate with someone since that. The boy was extremely proud of himself, for being able to trust someone with his heart and body, and give a chance for himself to experience what consensual love feels like.

Taehyung knew that Jeongguk would never hurt him, never force him into anything, never lie to him and never control him. He was so sure in this, and he didn't hesitate to be vocal about it.

"I am so happy for you Tae" Jin hugged him tightly, eyes watering a bit. "And I am so so proud of you"

"It still feels like a dream Hyung" said Taehyung, his eyes teary too. "I-i can't believe how fast and how deep I fell for him. It's like.... like nothing's wrong with me when I'm with him. I'm not afraid, I'm comfortable and just so happy" he laughed a little and wiped his eyes. "He makes me feel the safest I've ever felt Hyung. I feel so... normal with him"

Jin smiled sadly at his baby brother and caressed his cheek. He knew well how insecure Taehyung is about his conditions. How hard the boy tries to get better and leave the ghosts that haunt him where they belong. In the past, buried and never awakened.

"You are normal Tae and nothing is wrong with you" the older said sternly. "You are the strongest person I have ever known. After everything that happened, you are still here, standing bigger than ever and letting new people in your life. I trust Jeongguk with you and you know how big of a deal that is"

Taehyung laughed a little at that. Yes, it really is a huge thing for Seokjin to trust someone completely when it comes to his brother. Jimin was the only one who had that title and now Jeongguk achieved it too.

"Will you tell him?" asked Jin softly. Taehyung just looked down.

"I dont know" he said in a small voice, voice cracking a bit. "I want to, I really do but.... it's so hard. A part of me just wants to forget about it and act like it never happened. But he deserves to know why I act the way I act sometimes. He deserves to know it all, but I feel so ashamed" a single tear left the boy's eye as he looked up at his brother.

Jin wiped the tear away and sighed.

"I know me telling you that there's nothing to be ashamed of won't help. But Tae. What you went through isn't to be embarassed about. You are a survivor and you have every right and reason to be proud of that. I am sure Jeongguk would also be so proud of you."

"I know" smiled the brunette. "He would never do anything to hurt me. He is such a good person Jinnie. Feels too good to be true" he chuckled.

The brothers spent the rest of the evening laughing and Jin helping Taehyung with his university work.

Both of them unaware of the chaos they caused in a certain raven haired man's heart.

Jeongguk hates the word stalking. So when he set the cameras and mics up in Taehyung's home, he kept telling himself that this isn't stalking. He just needs to see and hear Taehyung at all times. He watches the boy when Taehyung isn't with him, listens to whatever he is saying and just lets himself enjoy the sight of his love.

But now he regrets putting those goddamn things there. He regrets opening his computer to see what Taehyung will do after they made their relationship official. He wishes he didn't listen to that conversation. Because now, he is sitting there, staring at the now turned off screen and clenching his fists.