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the absolute cutie that is ginger (update)

first of all ik the title is cringe af ok but I ouldn't think of how to title it if ya'll have better ideas please put it in the comments cus this ones abominable ik T-T

anyways so over summer my buff sister (like shes actually so strong NGL I'm proud to be related to her like shes stronger than any other girl at my school and crazy good at running) convinced me to join a solar car club

some other school had invited our school to double team cus no one wanted to join the club          prob cus they thought it was lame or sm which like fair but also do u know how awesome it is to come back to school and tell the guys in are grade I built a car over summer!!!! lol I felt cool :)

so funny thing I actually liked his older brother at first cus he had the most gorgeous hair and smile and ginger had like been on his phone in the corner of the car garage with headphones on all the time so i didn't notice him

but later I got to talk to him cus his dad took his phone lol and turns out he's actually pretty funny

pretty soon I noticed we talked more and more and during lunch break ( cus we were there 7 hours a day once a week for several months) we would sit near each other and we would always fight over this one rolly chair. One time I almost sat on him lol trynna get it

he even didn't bring his headphones anymore and the funnest thing we'd do is explore the nearbye school

see this was all at the schools garage so we were on campus and during lunch me and him and one other guy ik from school (dw he was older than me and had a gf so he wasn't a problem in our moments lol he actually was scheming for us to get together) would see how many doors they forgot to lock and explore the place after hours. Lol me and ginger got rly scared cus we went to the kitchen and it was all dark and it reminded us both of this one scene in a horror video game

i'll finish this later cus I'm supposed to be participating in mock trail practice rn ugh

I've arrived cus today some guys made fun of me in class and typically being called emo and stuff wouldn't bother me cus it's not rly in insult plus I'm not.

I just go to a private rich kid school so everyone kinda looks the same which no hate on lulu its gorgeous and I understand why its trending cus its cute af

anyways kinda didn't have a great day so imma talk about ginger :)

so we liked like a lot of the same stuff and he used to be bullied too.   we had practically the same backstory except his was sadder and i think that was when we really clicked cus its not often you meet the other gender version of you who's so similar and yet rly unique

anyways he was like me but he still struggled with social anxiety like I used to for a long time till I forced myself to do uncomfy things until asking for extra pickles on my mcburger was normal for me and I actually now love presenting speeches 

he was like me but a little happier and friendlier. I also used to have a lot of his struggles and I wanna help him overcome them.

anyways he's the cutest thing you've ever seen like aghjjasfsythwatvdiuewashgvrdatshjtdwyaszvtyvgubtweusyjzvxstdyusgbatvewusygbatdsuv PLEASE MARRY ME UR SO HANDSOME I LOVE YOUR SMILE AGHAFYRTWY

bro if he finds this....

he wont 

anyways FUN FACT TIME :)   my favorite feature is someones smile because I personally think my smile is very ugly and it ruins my face. I genuinely think I'm pretty until I smile.                                      I think its cause we want what we don't have so we admire the qualities we wish we had when their in someone else.

so ya'll don't wanna hear me rant about why I like u prob just wanna hear some cute moments so here's a list lol:

 - he loves art and I do too and I wanted to draw so I grabbed a scetchbook from the guy friend from school assuming it was his so I could doodle in it and he would prob just rip it out. Parker came over and watched over my shoulder then I told him I can't draw well when people watch me and so he just sat back down and listened to music on his phone across the empty classroom until I finished. I set it down actually pretty proud and later I decided to flip through the scetchbook and asked if anyone knew who's it even was and Parker said it was his. I felt so bad i'd just grabbed his stuff and drawn in it so I apologized but he didn't seem to mind. I still feel bad and wonder if he kept my drawing. 

- when the other guy from school watched soccer I came over and sat next to him a wheely chair and watched and Parker would lean over the chair with his hand dangerously close to my head

- ASRFASWBANSTWF this was my favorite ok so we were typing emails to ask for sponsors on our solar car but I basically was babysitting him and another guy there he would talk to. they kept getting distracted and watching dumb YouTube videos and I was trying to reign them in but they would stop for 2 seconds then get distracted again. me and Parker were sitting pretty close so we could see the computer and while I was correcting this guys email formatting and making it sound more profesional. I didn't think I was much of a Grammer nerd but this kids were so bad they awoken sm deep within me. I was just cussually helping his friend when I feel ginger reach over to me and just pat my head. HE PAT MY HEAD >:0 I just froze for a sec and then tryed to huff out a small laugh to brush it off and said "what? ok" and just did my best to play it off which I was proud of how effectively I managed not to show any reaction. but when I had said that he was looking at me and just smiling HE SMILED AT ME AND SAID NOTHING

I told my friends and he told it could've been a friendly gester NO ONE DOES THAT TO SOMEONE THEY MET A FEW WEEKS AGO UNLESS IT MEANS SOMETHING 

I mean then again could very well be delusional so tell me in the comments but I think it had to have meant something

- ok so I idn't have a current job so I just cute out little shapes out of cardboard scraps with an exacto knife. I had cute out stars and hearts and I proudly displayed my well cut heart to the school guy and he took it and gave it to ginger saying it was from me. ginger just looked at me and I quickly snatched it from the other guy and threw it away the got mad at him. I was a little preoccupied berrating the guy but I could swear I saw ginger blush, he's kinda always slightly pink cus he's well a ginger, but he was pink pink. though you never know I could be delulu

- ok so this one was just a sweet gesture. I don't remember what he said but something that made me follow him to eat lunch in some other classroom and he just sat and talked to me. he would come up to me and randomly ask me questions typically stuff like, If you were sn animal what do you think you'd be or what superpower i'd have. it was a little nerdy and lame but I love that shit so I found it adorable. anyways he did his usual cute questions and and then he would tell me stories about stuff at his school and I would too. it was really cute and he went to get more food and when he came back he shut the door slightly. dw he didn't fully close it but he just sat and talked to me and like he really listened. we're both big yappers but he unlike pepperoni he just sat and smiled when I talked. ugh his brother came in later and he looked a little pissed and I kinda was sad too but it was a sweet gesture while it lasted