my life lol

guys ummm this is weird

so I got snap again

moment of weakness terrible idea... but me and dog keep snapping again 

I feel like I'm just dragging him on but also I talk to him about possibly asking ginger out and he keeps saying to just text him I like him and if it fails it fails but ofc not cus I don't wanna ruin our friendship

anyways me and dog have known each other for years like I think its four years now

....thats wild

its just like I know I need to break it off before one of us gets hurt because its like he's flirting with me and I kinda brush it off and just kinda um like "cool" or just awkwardly give a thumbs up and mind my own business but I don't ever really tell him to stop but I don't indulge it

its weird its just I cant help but get embarrassed when he says stuff like oh "here princess" in class or just says like "oh ya my pookie (my name)" 

when he does this I just give him a disgusted confused look and say "what? ok"

but like I think sometimes ii blush but that's just cus who wouldn't like uidsjgtnsjm

I don't like him....I dont

he's not a good guy. and he just thinks I'm hot cus I'm emo and he has a weird think for emo girls but its one of those toxic things where were both emotionally attached and it feels almost impossible to cut off 

I need solar car club to start up again. I need to see ginger again.

he's a breath of fresh air in the chaoticness of my life. He's so refreshing to be around and just wholesome. Hes one of those eggs that are so wholesome and cute that you just cant objectify or think bad thoughts about him because he's just so bright. Him and lust just cant coexist. 

Guys I miss him lol I wonder if he thinks of me too