my life lol

nvrm its chill/ mock trials coming up and I'm scareddd

ive been purposely trynna talk to the guys in my grade more often and not ignore them 24/7 in hopes that they'd realize I'm not scary lol and I think its going pretty good

also hopefully solar car should start up soon because I miss hanging out with ginger. 

my friends tell me I should just simply ask him out to the dance but I'm not sure how I would casually mention it because what I do know is I don't wanna confess 

and ya I know I know you only live once and the worst he can say is he doesn't like you back but I'm just not sure I'm willing to risk ruining our friendship I have a way better chance of becoming really good friends with him if I don't force my feelings on him before we get the chance to be friends.

maybe by the end of this solar car year we will be close enough for us to hang out outside of solar car stuff. 

>side note; I noticed ginger seems more outgoing and idk just like nicer and happier all around then when I first met him like...damn I think like a year ago, anyways idk what it is but I just get a a sense of change for the better in him and it makes me happy. he's probably working hard I'm proud of him.<

I always end up sounding like a mom when I like guys. 

wait ya'll.... maybe that's why all the guys that like me seem like they semi have mom issues

huh..... Im prob just over speculating but still its interesting 

also the state Mock Trial competition is in 1 1/2 WEEKS!!!! iudshaunsgduyjfhsd

I'm excited but terrified at the same time. My witness that I'm playing the role of is like this girl boss tough sheriff lady which would be super chill if it weren't for literally all the evidence pointing torwards me bribing this guy to falsely testify in court T-T 

like the case is so sided and typically they try to make it fair but no this time its just brutally incriminating of my specific witness so imma get absolutely demolished during my cross exam

oh well itll be fine lol I have specific Bible verses for confidence before these type scary things