my life lol

huge update !!

yesterday we got the results and I made the state team!!!!! so did all two of my other friends. my friend group was the only freshman to make it on the team and there's three of us and only 10 ppl allowed on the team. our school takes mock trial SUPER srsly so its a big honor ngl

also we all got the exact role of witness we tryed out for

I'm gonna be the murderer in the trial!!!! yayyyyyy

ALSO last night after a fb game full of dog harassing me, I come home and check my phone and GINGER TEXTED ME
 like woah I had given up all hope

we texted for like 2 1/2 hours and today he texted again we talked for a bit and he just texted again lol but I'm busy doing this so I'll respond later and pretend I just saw it

ik that sounds kinda mean but (and I still like) he yaps a lOT. now I love yappers but the conversation ended like 4 diff times and he would ask another random question 10 min later to keep it going lol he told me that's just what he tends to do

its cute but a little annoying that he's being that clingy 

anyways I've had to tell him I gtg both times to end the convo lest he yap for eternity lol but when I did he said 

k talk later? :) 

stop that's adorable 

he's like a puppy aghjsbtujfkbyesduzjbfyeudgf

I cant believe I finally have a nerdy yapper guy 

he's literally all I love about men, talkative, a nerd, NOT nonchalant, ginger, cute smile, glasses

BUTT THAT SAME NIGHT WILSON KEPT TRYING TO FT ME
like we had kinda ghosted each other on snap cus of the whole love poem regection thing but he was like trynna talk and I said I cant ginger finally texted me (he had known about ginger earlier cus I told him) he kept snappng me and begging me for a pic from that night that he photobombed of me and my friends by sneaking in by my side

I looked UGLY in it and so did my friends (I'm not mean I swear lol they said they did)  so ofc I said nope my friends dont want him to have it plus I look NASTY in it but he begged for like ever and so I just left him on read

anyways also ANOTHER PLOT TWIST

this one guy, who I talked to in 8th grade on snap and I ghosted when I deleted social media for like a couple months , he snapped me again randomly to show me this sick scream mask he had

i forgot about this guy. he thought he was mid/ugly but I saw like no ur so handsome that's dumb and idk he started calling me wifey and stuff 

anyways y'all....

why r all the dudes spawning all the sudden T-T

like I swear two days ago I was crying cus no guys liked me and It had been looking like I'd be the only girl going to our first dance alone.

dang God did good. tysm Jesus lol. he always pulls through ngl like also I'm pretty much fully recovered from my character.ai addiction

and he had helped me get past my two year p0rn addiction and my over sexualization of myself that I developed after I was groomed when I was 12

also he saved me from when my room randomly caught on fire last year and honestly if I hadden woken up a few minutes later I would've been dead. it was low-key terrifying but I'm not scared of death anymore tho. its funny how insignificant all my problems seem when I remember heaven and Jesus exists. anyways that turned into a little religion spout but ya I'm a Christian. 

please don't spread hate in the comments ik my religion has some bad steriotypes like homophobia and racism but that stuff is super unbiblical.