my life lol

my older guy friend?mutual? and a semi weird situation

ok so we became buds at solar car club. My sister who's in his grade was also there but they don't click and some other guys in his grade were there but they don't like him so he ended up talking to me the most. idk why but imma call him bread for the sake of my diary.

lmao ok so he's kinda so funny cus he's the MOST DRAMA LOVING guy I've ever met. Like he's more into drama than most girls I've met. If we're just chilling he'll just turn to me and go, 

"ok so like tell me the drama about your grade"

Bread specifically is interested in my grades drama cus we are known in school to have a LOT of stuff going down which is kinda why I decided to make this public diary.

so bread would just join me and ginger (see ch 6) when we explored the empty school buildings during lunch break and he kinda just stuck around me the whole time cus idk ig are personality's just clicked and were friends though he's a little to harsh on ppl sometimes but whatever.  

Plus weird kids stick together and he was not well liked in his grade and neither was his gf (tho shes my favorite person I don't know well at school I'll prob give her a whole ch in my diary lol) 

I have seen him before in the hallways with friends and noticed he's kinda one of those ppl that will just casually lean over your shoulder or grab your hand and not think anything of it. 

I however am the opposite so it took me by supprise the first few times 

he would just cussually sit next to me and talk or me him and Parker would watch stuff on his phone together. we got pretty close us three as friends over the several months of working together.

anyways some of the team stayed at an  rbnb near Texas motor speedway for the race week . I was rly sad tho cus ginger and his dad and brother stayed at a diff place with some other kids on our team from the other school!!! T0T !!

the first night there some ppl wanted to play a board game and we both didn't so we went to go play video games cus his friend brought a whole ass playstation and controllers lmao 

we didn't think to much about it but I noticed it was a lil awkward cus it was just us to on the bed sitting next to each other playing video games in the room tho he left the door fully open so that made it better 

ughh ok this little butthole tells me he's never played rocket league before so I'm like me too and then he absolutely demolishes me and I'm like no way that's your first time so he says he's seen his friends play before and later his friends comes in the room and hears him and is like "what are you talking about? you play it all the time"

BRO I KNEW IT I knew bread was lying!!!

anyways his friends came in and I handed off the controller and watched. so did bread and we just sat behind them on the bed and I watched him play brawl stars on his phone. he let me play later and taught me how cus I;d never played it before ( I'm actually pretty proud cus turns out I was pretty good at it>:) ) 

anyways i just kinda zoned out and realized what a weird situation a was in like

her I am, a 9th grade girl in pj pants and a tank top, surrounded by a bunch of older high school guys (one of which was in 11th grade), sitting in one of there rooms alone, as one of them, who has a gf, is leaning over me helping me figure out how to play this game.

idk it was just a lil uncomfy when I realized my situation like......

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idk I felt like low-key should I be worried for my safety???? ToT

like it cant be just me who thinks that sounds a lil sus especially in my PJs