[Xaden x Y/n] Love on the Parapet

Chapter 38

Trigger warning: graphic wounds (torture) 

Author's note: but it'll be Xaden torturing Ritas. The one and only OC that I can't wait to freaking kill off in this fic. He's the first one I hate soo much after several years of writing fanfics and having a few OCs. 

Xaden's pov

I look down at Basgiath under my feet, everything looking so small on the parapet although I feel like the most defeated person on the earth. I knew what I was getting myself into when I succumbed to worrying about Y/n's reaction if I told her everything that comes with the dragons' mating bond, and how it affects their riders. We had promised to deal with each other's reaction but I guess I failed that miserably. 

I wipe my face streaked with tears, something that I learned to never show to others. Not since Aretia. I try not to feel sorry for myself, not when I have things to do, and younger ones to take care of, but tonight I let myself soak in the misery. I lost the person I was supposed to take care of, and I don't know how to earn back her trust. Y/n can't trust me anymore. And it's obvious that you can't love someone who you can't trust. The only solution seems like going back in time and never making the mistake in the first place. 

'I'm not trying to be mean, but you're the last person I want to talk to right now.' I whisper, sensing Violet standing next to me on the parapet with her dress gathered in her hands. It was her fault for not being able to block the dragons when she clearly needed to, but it wasn't her fault that Y/n broke up with me. That was mine. 

'I know. But I promise I don't feel like...you know, anymore. I just came to see if you are....' 

'Okay?' I ask, glancing at her pale face with guilt all over it. I watch her eyes grow wide at seeing my own red-rimmed eyes, although she tries to hide the surprise. She looks even more guilty as I turn back to stare at Basgiath. 'I am not okay, Sorrengail. And if you had any concern for me or Y/n, you would have let me be tonight. Not to mention wearing that to climb up here. You know you are risking both of our lives right now.' I know I should stop, but I can't help but blame her for trying to check on me when anyone could guess that I am not okay. Even Garrick and Bodhi let me be up here alone, knowing that I needed some time by myself to let myself feel my emotions and clear my head. 

'Sorry.' She whispers, frozen on the spot. 

'It's whatever. Just...don't shove your nose in this anymore.' I say, and it sounds cruel, but I mean it. I'm the one who needs to earn Y/n's trust if I want her back. 

'Okay.' Violet says again quietly, but the silence is broken by the red daggertail roaring in fury in the night sky. 'Isn't that...?' She says, stopping as the red daggertail cries loudly, red flames cutting across the navy air in angry large strokes. The red dragon's wing beats, her jaw squeezing the smaller brown dragon. 

'What?' I speak, forcing myself up on my feet. The red daggertail takes a huge chunk of the brown dragon's flesh, it swaggering in the air from the damage. The red dragon does not miss a beat to torch the bleeding dragon in fire, the scales sizzling in heat. 'Fuck.' I swear as I usher Violet toward the end of the parapet. My gut twitches as I recognise the brown dragon, the only reason Y/n's red daggertail could be so furious finally hitting me. 

'What's going on?' Violet asks, but I feel my heart drum against my skin, adrenaline and fury overtaking me that I don't bother to answer. 

Ritas' brown scorpiontail. 

Red daggertail attacking it. 

I tie my shadow like a rope to the building and connect it to both of us so that it stops from us falling. Violet still looks confused even as she walks on the parapet, my hand slightly pushing her back forward to let me walk faster. I look up at the dragons, the brown dragon flying pathetically away from the angry red dragon roaring after it, dropping down to its flesh at lightning speed. The brown dragon manages to hide in the forest, the red daggertail screeching in rage, fire spreading into the night sky in furious red smog.