𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐀'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕
i woke up laid in ashtrays bed, he was dead asleep next too me and was laid completely still. i sat up and checked the time on my phone, '9:30 am' i sighed turning on his tv. i put youtube on and just watched the tv until ash woke up.
"why are you watching youtube? are you 9?" ashtrays groggy voice said from next to me. he groaned rolling over and looked at the tv. "just because you can't watch anything because you have no attention span." he scoffed rolling over onto his side.
"it's not my fault." he whined like a baby going on his phone, "shut up ashtray, you're so immature." i mumbled making him sit up. "says the one who cried to me for three hours because you were scared to leave me alone incase i fucking killed my self and then proceeds to make comments about the fact i can't focus, can't even sit in a conversation for longer for ten minutes and have a panic disorder." he got out of bed and went into his bathroom.
fez came in looking at me slightly concerned, "the fuck is he on?" fez asked sitting on the edge of ashtrays bed. "i don't know... i wasn't making fun of his problems?" i was almost in tears, not because of him getting annoyed, but because he brung up when i couldn't leave his house when he was really sick.
"he knows that, he's just you know... him." fez shrugged and i nodded in agreement. my heart was in my stomach as i anxiously waited for ashtray to get out of the shower. "come talk to me out here if he yells at you." i nodded again as fez left the room.
about ten minutes later ash came out of the bathroom with wet hair, shorts and a hoodie. "sorry." i awkwardly said looking down, "na you're good, i'm sorry too." he said cleaning up his room. "i wasn't making fun of your — whatever it's called..." i almost yelled at him.
"my depression, my anxiety and adhd." he said, i scoffed and just cried. at this point he is just trying to make me feel guilty, "sorry i'm only joking..." he came over laying his head on my stomach. "you're an asshole!" i cried wrapping my arms around him.
"i'm so sorry..." he held my waist and kissed my stomach, he worked his was up kissing my cheek. "i love you..." he said laying on my chest. "i love you too..." i laid down embracing him.
in no way am i glamourising adhd! i suffer with it myself.
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