𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐒𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒🌟💊

𝐔𝐍𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘

𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐀 𝐏𝐎𝐕

today is my birthday, my party is going to start in half an hour and i am already tipsy. me and ashtray got into a fight just before i started getting ready, all because he has to come. it's not a really big party around 50 people are coming. 

i just got ready and walked downstairs, "ness, honey you look beautiful." my mom hugged me and kissed me on the cheek i smiled and hugged her back. "i'll be out of your hair call me if something goes wrong and i'm trusting you don't over drink."  i nodded "will do." 

"is ashtray sleeping over?" she turned around as she stepped out of the door, "i don't even know if he's coming." i looked down pushing my hair behind my ears. "ness i'm so sorry i would talk but i have to leave, go see your sister she was just gonna stay in her room but she will stay with you." i nodded going back upstairs my heels clicking off the cold floor.

"anna please come to my party!" i rushed across the hall stumbling into her room. "why?" she asked walking out of her bathroom. "ashtrays upset and i don't think he's coming tonight..." i groaned. "your party is about to start let's go get you drunk." 

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐏𝐎𝐕

vanessa's party started two hours ago and i have heard nothing, i didn't want to go to her party but when i told her it turned into an argument. party's aren't my thing especially vanessa's party's, shes so classy to the point were i really do wonder what she could possibly see in me. i have zero money and zero class. 

i laid in bed wondering why, why me, why did the most beautiful girl, the it girl, pick me. i looked back at our time together. i knew i had to go to the party, i just really didn't fucking want too. 

i got out of my bed and put on some clothes, i checked my phone for the twentieth time too see a message from vanessa.

𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐀🐆🍸: happy unhappy birthday to me 

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘🖤: what 

𝐕𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐀🐆🍸: fuck yoi asjtrsyyy

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘🖤: are u drunk?

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘🖤:answer me

i went into the living room where fez was sat, "you alright kid?" i nodded and sighed, "i'm going to nessas, she hates me but she's drunk as fuck so i'm not letting her be alone." fez stood up putting a hand on my shoulder.

"don't do anything to hurt yourself." he quietly spoke, i hate being spoke too like a risk to myself. i'm not that anymore i've overcome the need to be in physical pain to drown out the mental pain. "okay." i took a deep breath and left for the door.

"i'll drop you off." fez chased behind me and pulled me into the car, "thanks, i gotta find away to get everyone out of her house." dug my head into the back of the seat. "i swear she's rich does she not have like bodyguards and stuff to get everyone out." i laughed, "yeah but since it's christmas in a week she let everyone go home for a three week brake and is paying them herself." i looked out of my window.

"her parents allowed that?" i looked at him raising my eyebrows, "no that's why she's paying them." he sighed, "she's a good kid, she's so good to you." i smiled, "i know." 

i got to her house to see a bunch of drunk people shouting, all their heads turned as i walked through. i pushed through crowds of people desperately trying to find her. "ness..." i saw her practically unconscious with her dog tucked in the corner, "ashtrayyyy..." she cried grabbing my collar. i lifted her up into my arms.

"thankkkkkkk youuuuuuuu." i carried her through the crowds and up the back stairs so no one could see, i don't want to give anyone invitations to wonder her house. i took her into her bedroom laying her on the bed, "ash please go get nelly... and anna to get everyone out." i nodded quickly pulling all of her hair back. 

"i'll be back in a sec mama." she nodded a little whining. "anna!" i tapped her, "ashtray where the fuck is vanessa!" she yelled over the music and chatter, "she's upstairs she asked me to get you to get everyone out and i need to find her dog." she pointed at nelly, her dog, and stared getting everyone out.

i went back upstairs with her dog, "ness? are you okay..." she nodded taking a deep sigh, i put pillows against the backboard of her bed pulled her to be sat up. "i'm so- sorry ashtray i love you so much."  

"i love you more..."