So High School

guilty as sin

idk why i called it that but it was playing so i was like "why not"
anyway...

Lovers POV

Walking into first period, my body felt heavy. As if the weight of the world was on my back, and I had to act like nothing was there.

I sat down, looking at the empty seat next to me that used to be filled with my favorite blonde. Instead of seeing her, I saw the empty chair, with drawings on the desk she used to sit at.

Part of me wanted to cry. Run out of the room and jump on top of her in the hospital room. But she wouldn't want that. She'd want me to go to school and be normal.

When attendance was being called, and I heard her call out Rep's name. A part of me broke. "She's absent today." I said, looking down at my desk. The teacher nodded and marked it on her computer.

I didn't pay attention in any of my classes, and at lunch, we all just sat silently. Nine and Midnights were feeling the same way I was. We took turns seeing her in the hospital.

Midnights was eating a bag of Doritos, and Nine was picking at an orange. "What's up with you depressed emos?" A girl said, sitting near us.

I looked up, and watched as she sat down across from me. Her hair was a short bob, around the name length as Nine's, but it was bleached. (Very poorly, I might add.)

Midnights looked her up and down. "What's that supposed to mean?"

"Oh sorry, I have a weird sense of humour." She laughed. "I'm new here, and you guys looked cool and pretty, so I thought I might be able to try to talk to you."

She sounded pretty nice, so I decided to talk to her. "Well I hope the school is finding you well." I smiled at her slightly. "I'm Lover, This is Midnights and 1989, but we usually call her Nine." They both looked at her, Nine waving, and Midnights giving her a small nod.

"You guys have pretty names! I hate mine, usually I just go by K." She giggled, her hair falling in front of her face slightly. "Well I hope I'm not intruding too much, but you seem a little sad. Did I say something?"

I shook my head. "Nope! Our friend is just in the hospital right now, and we miss her."

"Oh." She rested her hand on top of mine. "I'm sorry to hear that. Is she going to be okay?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "They don't know yet." She gave me a reassuring smile.

"Hey, I have some cookies my mom made last night, you want some?" She pulled out some cookies with chocolate chunks in them. She offered them to all of us, and me and Midnights took them gracefully.

I grabbed a third cookie and slid it to Nine. "Would Rep want you to eat this?"

Her face became pale, and she tensed up. "Don't you dare use Rep as an excuse to get me to eat. You don't get to do that."

Midnights and K both just sat there, watching Nine. "Now don't fucking make me do anything, because Rep isn't here, so you can't use her name like that." She slammed her hands on the table and got up.

We watched as she left, wiping her eyes. "Okay... What?" K said. "You don't have to answer that actually, I don't want to intrude on your life."

I just shrugged. "Struggling with eating. Rep helps her."

"Oh."

We sat there in silence, eating the cookies for the rest of lunch. I ended up giving K my number, and taking a 0.5 to use as her contact picture.

The rest of the day was the same as the first. Every class, I fought the urge to run out and scream. But I made it through.

When I got home, I collapsed in my bed and sobbed into my pillow. I let my walls down, knowing nobody was there to see it.

I couldn't breathe. The only thing I could do was cry. I wish I knew. I wish I knew whether she'd be okay or not. A part of me wishes it worked so I didn't have to have this false shred of hope left. The unknown makes it worse than if she was just dead.

I wish it was me instead.

This is literally the shortest chapter I've ever fucking wrote. But I have no ideas at all. Someone give me things to do in this story before I break my computer out of frustration