My Brother.

Chapter 12: Broken promises.

A/N~I must stress this chapter is very heavy so please take caution whilst reading it,please look after yourself.

After I finish telling Jessie that I have been put on an 'exercise ban' I see him sigh and rub his forehead "this is bad" he moans, "yeah it's stupid, I should be able to dance without mum and dad worrying I'm 'burning too many calories' it's so dumb" I nod with him but he shakes his head "no Ellie, its bad that you fainted,from not eating enough and overdoing it,I'm dissapointed your having to drop out of the musical but I'm more concerned with your health,I mean...you definitely don't look well" Jessie gestures to my body.
I must not have noticed, I know I've lost weight because even my leggings are baggy on me now,but I don't feel small,not too small anyway. I cover my hands over my stomach in mild embarrassment then my door is pushed wide open and my dad walks in showing a heavy laundry basket as a door stop.
"Hi Jessie" he waves to jessie looking slightly disgruntled "keep this door open,it's not that I uhm...don't trust you,it's just...if Eli had a girl in his room it'd be the same rule. Door stays open guys" Dad nods with an awkward smile as he leaves and I heave over clasping my face with my hands feeling awkward and embarrassed by my dad,god. "Uhh,ignore my dad" I shake my head to Jessie and he snorts out of laugh before telling me some gossip from school.

Me and Jessie spend some time talking before he gets a text from his dad asking him to make his way home. "My dad could drive you home" I offer but Jessie waves off my offer and calls a taxi, rich boy can afford it I suppose.

Walking down the stairs with Jessie we pause at the front door to say our goodbyes "bye! Thanks for stopping over and checking up on me" I smile gingerly,"ofcourse! When I heard you had been in hospital it had me worried,Clara and Ryan too" he looks behind my shoulder and sighs, eli has gotten up from the couch and is standing behind me,eyeing up Jessie with his arms crossed standoffish "your spending alot of time with my sister" Eli sounds aggressive as he slowly lurks closer to me and Jessie standing inbetween us.
"Yeah...we are friends" Jessie nods then gives me a look that says 'what's this guys problem' I give Jessie a look back reciprocating his thoughts and then angle my neck towards my brother "piss off Eli" I moan, then feel a jolt of shock at my words, a few weeks ago I would've never spoken to Eli like that out of fear for the consequences, but since he made the promise to never...touch me again,it's like I have a protective shield around me. I notice Eli wince as I swear at him,and hear Jessie laugh,
"You know she's not interested in you,she'd never be,she thinks your a posh prick" Eli quickly jabbes in at Jessie "stop!" I yell at him, Jessie's amused face turns thoughtful then he looks offended "wait...do you actually think I'm a posh prick?" He turns to me,Eli is smirking like he's achieved something. "I would never say that Jessie! Ofcourse I don't think that,Eli is just...I don't even know!" I yell to Jessie and scowl at Eli, meanwhile footsteps start to make there way down the stairs.
Jessie look bewildered as he takes double takes at me and Eli's faces "im just gonna go" he mutters in defeat giving me an unconvincing smile and flashing Eli a look of disgust before heading out the door.

"Why did you say that!? I've never said Jessie was a-" "-ahem" an annoyed mum was standing over us both,she'd came downstairs just as Jessie had left. "What's all this arguing for?" She moans, Eli kicks his feet at the ground clearly mustering up some lies in his head, I try to give my mum puppy dog eyes as I talk "As Jessie was leaving Eli insulted him".
Our mum flicks her eyes between us both with a strict furrow brow "was Jessie rude to you? Why did you insult the boy? What did you say?" She crosses her arms and examines Eli as he speaks, "he, was kinda rude to me, yeah, I just said something stupid to him,barely an insult really,Ellie's just sensitive" Eli tries to give my mum the apologetic eyes and the sorry smile as she shakes her head at him and gives him the weakest telling off known to humankind. After which she dissapears into the kitchen, Eli's false sorry stance dissolves into an intimidating one and he walks over to me with a slimely smirk "I don't want you seeing Jessie anymore, he's clearly a bad influence on you" he quickly glances around and then grabs my wrists tightly,painfully "I mean-swearing at me" he grinds his teeth as he speaks "whatever possessed you to speak to me in such a way".
I bite my lip trying not to yelp in pain "Eli,your-hurting-me" I gasp trying to shake his tight grip off my sore wrists "don't. Speak. To me like that again" menace twitches in his dark brown eyes as he threatens me.
"Get off!" I yell loudly,hoping my mum will hear and enter from the kitchen, Eli looks startled and let's go quickly looking towards the direction mum walked off in, anger still beading from his eyes he waits for a moment expecting mum to enter and as he is staring away from me I take the chance to run up to my room.

I hear footsteps after me and see Eli charging towards my bedroom door as soon as I get to it,I try and squeeze through the door and shut it before he can get in but he pushes it open. I shuffle backwards more and more as he creeps closer to me, till my ankle hits the metal bedframe and I find myself crawling backwards on my bed curling myself into a ball when my backs against the wall. I know my knees won't protect me but I hold them up to my chest for a little cover against the possible rage Eli is going to instill on me. He stops moving towards me though, a wave of relief washes over me,but it's only temporary as Eli heads towards my door,but only to shut it closed.
Then he slowly creeps over to me, with a much calmer expression on his face but I know his intentions are far from sincere, I've seen this face before, I've been in this position before. I cant help but feel my eyes start to well up,this cant be happening,not again.
As he leeches himself next to me on the bed I feel myself squirm with discomfort, trying to push further away from him, further into the concrete wall. "Eli,please no" I cry out to him in a quiet croak.
His hand runs over my knee and he starts sliding it down towards my thigh,the floodgates are open and I'm fully crying but it's as if my voice has been taken away from me as I choke on the toxic like air. "Yo-u said you w-wouldn't,you promised,pleeaase" I cry out to him and try to push his firm hand away from my skirt before it can go any lower. He stops all motion and shrugs "and what are you going to do? Tell mum?dad? I promised weeks ago,if you tell them about you hitting your head weeks ago and what happened for that to happen" he leans over my shaking self and let's out a laugh "well, they're not going to believe you,they'll think your a liar, because why else wouldn't you have told them. Straight away." He grins villainously and then shoves his hand far up my skirt visciously and tugs my feet down so that I'm laying down,no longer with my knees as a slight barricade to my chest. He continues advancing his hands on more of my body, gliding his disgusting hands over me and pinning me down when I try to fight him off, I feel myself tense and freeze up,unable to fight,unable to move at all,not even able to cry anymore, just numb. In the position I've frozen in I can see my ceramic teddybear on my desk, I stare at the gift from my youth and feel as hollow as the ceramic bear. The noise of what's happening,the noise of anything is gone,the only thing I am focusing on is this small ceramic Teddy bear,it's shiny polished eyes,it's detailed groved in Teddy 'fur'.
And then Eli rapes me.

Violating me more than he had ever done before.

That evening,my soul shattered and I felt a piece of myself die.