My Brother.

Chapter 17: Somewhere over the rainbow.

Its Thursday today which means two things,the wizard of Oz musical will be performed afterschool, and Jessie's party will be this evening. I'm feeling quite gutted that i'm not going to be in the musical but im willing to let the feeling wash over me as I know Jessie wants me there and it's important for him,besides its good motivation for me to eat enough so that my parents,well dad mostly, will take me off the exercise ban. 

I know mum and dad both brought tickets for the musical when they thought I was going to be performing in it so im currently waiting for them outside the hall. School went quite speedy today and I didn't see Jessie at lunch but he texted me saying he hopes I can make it to the show,I hope my dad doesnt recognise him on stage and bother him after,I still haven't told Jessie about the lies Eli told my dad about him or that,techinally (and only because of the bullshit eli said to dad) that i'm not supposed to talk to him. Ryan told me and Clara during lunch that he couldn't make it as he has church with his family,something that is very close to his heart, but Clara said her and her sister Roxie will be watching the musical with their dad.

As im waiting outside the hall I catch a glimpse of a tall famillar figure with a suspicious hand behind his back and feel a little anxiety as the figure trecks towards me,but all my tensions release as I see it's Jessie with an eager excited smile, he pulls his hand from behind his back to reveal some bright,sunny yellow tullips. "Shouldn't you be behind the curtain preparing?rehearsing?" I beam brightly at the sight of him but feel a little worried as my parents could show up any minute, "I was rehearsing! I just went to go grab these" he lifts the boquet of tullips in the air "I know it can't be easy,coming to the musical...when someone with your calibre of talent should  be in it,but the whole...the eating...you need to get better" his eyes go from gleaming to concern as I take the boquet from him, feeling a little flustered and very surprised "Thank you Jessie,this is...really sweet" I give him a warm smile and feel myself blush a little as I pat his shoulder with my free hand, his eyes glance over to my hand before looking urgently at the door and then widening "I better go get prepared!" we both stand at the door in silence, as my eyes scan his face I notice he's wearing foundation which is unusual for Jessie, and peeking through the badly blended powder is hints of purple and blue,the bruises Eli left on his face just a few days ago "Thank you for coming to this Ellie" Jessie nods at me before signalling with his hand that he's got to go into the hall, I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I didn't even notice I was just standing there staring at him.

I look at the bunch of yellow glowing tullips in my hands and feel a sense of real care wash over me, i'm so glad i've turned up to support the musical and I really feel supported by jessie,if I feel my eating getting worse maybe I could turn to him,I mean I told Eli about it the other day,so maybe I could even tell jessie about what it is i'm trying to forget-"Hey" speaking of the devil, Eli's walks over to me,his hands in his pockets and a general look of annoyance on his face, he doesn't want to be here and it's clear. "You got tickets for this?" I ask genuinely confused as Eli nods and dad walks up next to him "well I thought you were gonna be in it didn't I, and also" Eli points tiresomely to dad. I look between them both and behind confused "Where's mum?" I furrow my brow and Eli huffs out a loud sigh of frustration whilst dad rubs his temple "your mums...ill" he looks around and has a look of repulsion in his eyes, "ill?" Eli scoffs clearly not believing him he gives me a strong stare and I know were both thinking the same thing,maybe it's a twin thing, she must be drunk again, I wonder what's making her feel the need to drink so much lately?! "Look your mum's ill,she's having a hard time of it. Nice flowers! Now lets go take our seats,Ellie are you still studying at Clara's after?" I nod to my dad, I told him I was studying at Clara's after so that I can head with Clara to Jessie's party after. Eli looks at the tullips in my hand and gives me a befuddled look "what's up with the flowers?" I ignore him and try and walk closer to my dad as we search for seats.

As we head into the hall to find seat, I take in the stage i've been missing rehearsing on,it's theatrical but small,this must be underwhelming for Jessie since I know harmony high has a much bigger stage and audience too,there isn't many people here to watch so far but i'm sure more people will fill in these seats. My dad sits on the end of an aisle leaving me to slip in next to him and Eli to sit on the right next to me, and after a few minutes of boresome lectures from dad about eating and school work the wizard of Oz starts. When Jessie steps on stage to act out his parts I hear a loud irritated moan from Eli and nudge him to shut up, when Jessie starts singing I hear gasps from the audience,even my dad looks impressed and I hear Eli slump into his seat and see a blue light flicker on as he starts tapping away on his phone to which a few people look over shaking heads at his rudeness. Through act 2 of the play Jessie is in the background of many scenes and is still very professional and in character however once he spots me in the audience I see his lips try and swallow back a playfull smile and I just smirk in my seat at him,losing focus on the student playing dorothy entirely and becoming enticed as jessie's endearing face,even with the badly covered bruises my brother gave him,he's still very alluring.

"That's that boy!"my dad angrily points at jessie on stage as he turns in his seat to me "I forgot he did the musical with you Ellie..." he crosses his arm clearly annoyed, I notice Jessie trying to stay in character but clearly noticing my dad pointing him out angrily, he looks puzzled on stage. Feeling aggitated I poke Eli's arm,he leans in close a tired bored exspression on his face as he whispers "what?" I look down at my tullips feeling nerves start to rise in my throat, I take a deep breath in, breathing in Eli's way too strong cologne as I do "You need to sort this-" I gesture discreetly to dad and Jessie "-out." Eli shakes his head in disbelief and snickers "Im serious,sort this out or-" I spit out frustarted, he clicks his tongue and looks behind me at my dad who's focussed on the stage before lurching his face intimidatingly close to mine "or? or?" he whispers mockingly. My body goes tense and my breath shallow, Eli eyes glare directly into mine and I feel increasingly uncomfortable and my body jolts in shock as he visciously grabs my thigh still menacingly shooting daggers into my eyes with his "we both know-" he hand slowly glides up my thigh and I feel my face tweak with discomfort as though im about to cry,my brain starts to rush up terrible memories of what he's done before whilst I feel my heart pound in fear, I feel as though im back in my bedroom and my twin has me cornered again. I can't breathe! I cant steady myself,im shaking, I need air! "-your not going to say anythi-"STOP!"I scream at the top of my lungs terrified as my jittery thin figure springs up. 

Everyone looks over as I stand frozen in horror and shock in the middle of the crowded hall. I can hear whispers and voices but everything is a slight murmur as i'm unable to focus slowly coming out of a panic attack and the flashbacks. As I stand there frozen my eyes meet Jessie's, he looks disturbed and concerned, his face has flushed a pale grey and his eyes are intently studying me.  I feel my dad tugging at my arm to pull me back down into my seat and hear his concerned voice but still in panic I can't make out what he's saying. I can feel the weight of heavy waterfalls behind my eyes just waiting to burst out, so I run out the hall and into the hallway,luckily its deserted due to the musical being on after school hours, so I breathe in,and out, and then tears flow.