Karna's reincarnation

19. Hardest Conversation

Duryodhan stared at me unbelievably and soon his face turned angry.

I closed my eyes. Like I expected!

"Do you even have an idea about what you are asking me?" He asked me in a raised voice, a hard tone.

I opened my eyes and nodded at him.

"Yes I do. I know that my- this behaviour is highly inappropriate. But my intentions aren't wrong. My feelings are genuine", I said softly.

"No! You can't just ask for the most precious thing I have in my life. I didn't expect this from you", he said disappointed.

I sighed feeling my heart crack. He had every right to be angry!

"Trust me in this Duryodhan", I said.

He was going to speak again when Dushala stood between us facing him.

"You can't shout at him like this bhrata. He is saying what I want. I confessed to him that I like him. I want him", she confessed.

Duryodhana's eyes turned wide hearing it.

"Yes", Dushala repeated. She confirmed it by her bold eyes that refused to look down. "I have every right to decide who I want to marry. And my choice is Angraj", she said.

I looked at her and then at Duryodhan. He seemed too upset. I knew he would be!

"Dushala. You and him have an age gap and we are best friends as well. Try to understand--" He said.

"Really? And me and Sindh Naresh? Won't we have an age gap? And how does you being best friends be any problem in our marriage?" She asked.

I knew Duryodhan wanted an alliance with Sindh. This was the only time he went wrong regarding his siblings.

He loved Dushala a lot and checked multiple times if she could live in Sindh and he decided to go for this alliance once he was sure of it.

But he forgot the most important thing.

His sister's choice!

That certainly wasn't with that Jaydrath who was nothing more than a piece of shit.

"Dushala loves me Duryodhan. And I will be always with you. You can be assured about her and don't you know me? I will always respect her", I tried to explain him.

He looked at me angrily.

"And you?! Do you love her?" He asked me. I was taken aback.

No! I don't love her.

But can I do anything? If I don't make our marriage happen. She will get married to Jaydrath.

And I can't let that happen to her. I can't let him be a hindrance in my reincarnation goal.

I knew Jaydrath's ill feelings for Panchali and his role in the war.

Could I let it go forward in any way?

No!

"Yes", I lied for the first time in my life. "I do love Dushala. I do want her", I said strongly.

"I trusted you regarding everything Karn and you--my sister", he said shaking his head.

I looked down heaving a deep sigh.

"I know what I asked you for is outrageous. But like she said just now, she wants me and it will be unfair to make her marry anyone else", I said.

"You don't believe in rules and customs. Do you think that just because we are best friends, ignoring your sister's earnest feelings is right? Do you think not caring for her wishes is right?" I asked him gently.

He seemed conflicted.

My mind went back to my sister in my era. My little ball of sunshine!

My reaction was just the same when I got to know about her boyfriend. Immediately a scowl formed on my face.

It's not like I want to control her. It's her life! She can take her own decisions.

But that possesiveness was in my heart for her.

I couldn't blame Duryodhan for the way he was reacting.

"I can't agree for this Dushala", Duryodhana said. "I just can't. You are having your swayamvar and marrying Sindh Naresh in it. That's it", he said and stormed off.

I guess he fears our relationship ruining at any point and it's effect coming on our friendship.

Or he fears me taking it lightly for our friendship and not caring much for his sister.

Whatever it is.

I will definitely make it up to him and convince him to trust me regarding his princess.

I won't let her marry Sindh Naresh. No matter what.

Dushala's sobs came in my ears. It broke my heart. I turned her around and she immediately hugged me.

"I am sorry Angraj", she sniffled. "because of me you and bhrata had a fallout", she said.

"No. It's not because of you. It's alright", I cooed at her.

She looked at me. I smiled.

"I promise that I will do something about it. Our marriage will happen no matter what", I said.

"Thank you Angraj", she smiled.

I nodded at her.

"Dushala", Duryodhan came glaring at me and I sighed. He held her hand and took her.

I don't know why I felt his behaviour was odd. I knew it was natural but now I felt it was kinda odd.

I shook my head. I am overthinking.

I decided to just go and practice archery for a while. That was the best thing I could do.

I went in the forest. My mind got stuck on the curse I was going to get because of the cow. I looked around and saw that it was the grazing area of the animals.

I walked further till I could reach an area devout of any settlements and I started practicing archery there.

Only to heard a painful animal shriek.

How is this possible?

I looked back with trembling heart and I saw that indeed! I had killed a cow.

What the hell this was?!

How is any of this even possible?

I quickly walked near it to see it was dead.

I felt my eyes moistened. Not because I was going to get a curse. Let it be. That was not my priority. I will accept it for the crime I did.

But because I killed an innocent animal.

"HOW DARE YOU?!"

I heard and I closed my eyes.