Death and Rebirth: All shades of love

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When the words are not heard
Nor welcome,
Then there's no point in even having a voice,
What's the point of the poetry?
Of these sentiments?
Why do we even exist?
There's too much I'd love to say to you,
So many things I'd love to show you,
Too many kisses I'd love to stamp on your skin
Too much urgency in both my arms and kegs
To wrap tightly around you,
Plenty of moans stuck at the back of my throat,
Just behind a tons of "I love you"...
But when you're around I'm silent,
I'm scared, petrified,
I roam in my own mind,
What if I say something wrong,
What if you laugh at me...
So, I remain in silence,
Like a graveyard where the name has been ravaged by time,
By brain fog,
By insensitive souls that carried on without looking back,
Not even once,
Not ever...
There are so many words I'd love to say to you,
But instead I swallow them in shame...
Shame of this feeling
Shame of the bearer of such pitiful message.